Many a times,this thought have been running through my mind.
I always look forward..to my future..my goals in life..and etc etc..to dream.to wish.to hope.
but..reality is still reality..
to be optimistic and confident is good.
but I have the other side.the weaker side.no matter how beautiful life is,not everyday will be a sunshine day.. =)
Life is too unpredictable.
every second.every minute.every moment.very important.
no one knows what tomorrow will brings.
I may be enjoying my favourite music..playing my favourite games..doing my favourite diy things..but who knows..all these may be gone tomorrow..
LIVE FOR THE MOMENT.
I have learn to realised that.
not easy at all.but reality.force people to learn.is harsh and cruel.

I have been missing a person for half a year already..
He have been very busy all these time..
I fear..
fear that my existence will be gone in his world..
this thought have been running in my mind and heart all along..
I regretted..
for not being able to hold him..'dont know' as an answer given to him..and I have been thinking now and then..why am I so frail that time..how can everything just let it go pass like that..
things may have change for the better and everything may have last..
guess theres a need to take a break that time..situation too tense..
I always asked myself..we can make it a lasting one..isnt it..why will things turn out that way..
If i am not weak that time..
If time could stop at that very moment..I dont want let go.never will I.
I missed him so much so much.
If hes free.I wish he can ask me out for lunch.if he doesnt want to see me..i hope he have enough rest..
If hes busy..I hope he take good care of himself..dont tire himself out..and hopefully..still remember me..but i dare not harbour hopes he will miss me.. .. ..
I hope i am worthy of him..
no matter what..no matter where he is..no matter what hes doing..I want him happy and well.
hoping he will contact me when hes free..hoping he will talk to me..hoping he will want see me..
but I hide these feelings of mine and kept this heart.I want to tell him.. .. ..
my world always have your existence..
It doesnt matter if you are very busy..I will meet you in my heart..
and..
I treasure you.so much.
so much.
will he know my feelings for him..all these time..

Camwhoring with meilin cousin and Ted(the big bear).hahas.
Missed ted! big bear.heavier than me.fatter than me.I need more energy in order to throw him around.hahas. =XX
Look at my jadon boy! little nephew growing up day by day! more handsome.cuter too! hehe..know how to bully me already. =( but dotes on me alot too.sweet little boy! hahas.loves.loves.
and yea.If you all find the baby very cute..yes.shes my little niece! hahas.baby rachael! my tangjie just gave birth last friday~~ =))
My uncle family is getting bigger..hehe..loved this uncle family..grew up under their love care and concern..feel really heartworming..my second family~ =))

I missed Taiwan Days..

Everyone wished they had the answers to everything..
But life wont always go the way we want.. =)
Important thing is to have faith and tell ourselves we can find a way out..we definitely can. As long as we are willing to take a step forward..we can light up all kind of darkness and let the SUN shines. =))
WHEN THERES A WILL, THERES A WAY. =))

Life is so unpredictable..mine is like a roller coaster..full of ups and downs..I wish to control the speed..but its beyond my control.. =)Treasure every second,minute and moment..by smiling..spreading joys around.. =)Reach out for the goals in life and move forward~no matter how its going to be.. =)I have goals in all different aspect..but how am I going to turn the dream into reality..I want to continue to keep the music in my life going on..I will hang in,persevere..determined to add oil..and not give up =)But..my life seems to have lost a puzzle for half a year..so it doesnt seem to be complete..I have been awaiting for the puzzle to be place back to where it should be.or will the puzzle be gone forever?I dont know..I fear..Time wont stop.It will just keep on ticking.I must continue to move on! =)) let everyday be a sunshine day! =)) Every tomorrow will be a brand new day! =)

Happy 21st Birthday Chuan and Gab! =)
Hope you both have had an enjoyable chalet at downtown east Coasta Sands. =)
Chuan brought his nitendo wii there.and the games were fun.hahas.
Both of them came up with a theme Jap for their birthday.. ;)
hmm..I wore something like a beach dress on that day..some say it was nice..but some say it looks like pyjamas! =( and some say like pregnant dress. >.< ( where got.zz.the wind blew..so the dress looked bigger ma..hahas..)
anyway,thanks so much for inviting me to the chalet! =)