Life is like a run.
everyday.everyone is running away from something.running for time.24hours is insufficient.running to the destination they have been wanting to reach.we as humans just keep on running every second,minute and moment..but in the end..people asked themeselves why are they running..all these years..for the people around us who loved and care for us..or it is just for ourselves..or..? for survival?
everybody have different answers I am sure.

for me.I have had a really really very tough time running..all these years..
my appearance may seems very happy..very carefree..
but I have been hanging in there..real tough..
alot alot of matters..
I guessed everyone have their own problems faced.
in friendship,I am really very grateful to god..for giving me few wonderful friends..who never fail to stay with me at anytime,any moment.to keep me going on during tough times.to share my joys at any moment.
in family..I am so glad to have found myself few wonderful cousins.who have been with me for years.and very thankful to have found my uncle family.who have been with me for 6 years.all the way till I am in primary 1.I went back home.they accompany me through my growing up days..who always give me or get me anything that i was hoping to get..but that is not the main point.It is the love they have showered me with that always make me feel very heartwarming.knowing that they have always treat me as part of them makes me very touched.
I always have a deeper bonding with them.. =))
in rela..I have been waiting for a person for months(ever since the ending during last year dec)..i will continue to wait..everyday..national service is so tiring and tough..so I should be really understanding.. =)




I hope all these years..I have been a great friend to everyone.. =)
If not..do tell me how I should improve alright.. =)
I must be stronger..
there is a saying..a champion is not one who never fails..a champion is one who never gives up~




but I do have my weak times..sigh.. =((

Tampines 1 with Serena~ =))
Thnaks for the great day..It was really enjoyable..especially the stimulator at arcade..the theme mode tinky and the try on guitar hero.hmm.come to think of it.kinda missed my games consoles.especially nitendo wii. =(
missed my besties.hmm.Time is never enough.
projects and etc.articulate my passion for projects?hmm.think twice.hahas.

to someone..PLEASE.what should I do to make you let me off.
I have already had enough.I told you to treasure what you have now.and I am serious.
Dont ever let her down.are you going to wait till you lose her then have regrets.
why.why are you doing this to me.all these while,what do you want.are you going to haunt me for your entire life.
you made all your choices and decisions.you told me so firmly in fron of my face.remember all your actions and words?
you told me if I am not going to give chance,i will have regrets.
what are you trying to tell me?
no matter what.haunt all you want.I am very tired.I wont let your words or actions bring me down easily anyway.




I still missed him everyday..
and hes always on my mind..
but I know hes busy..
hope hes well and fine..

Hello all..I think theres some little problems with my handphone~
there are times when I reply messages and a few didnt receive.
I am very sorry about it.
If any of you waited my reply for very long..but still no replies from me..sent me back a message.to check with me see if I did receive your message..
hehe..so sorry..

a short post before I turned in~hehe..
presented very first horror short film with elective groupmates..no negative comments..lecturer said it was a good job and we have put what we learnt into use.well done all.our hard work paid off.our main actor and the ghost really did very well..hahas..continue to add oil yea.. =))
hopefully the class of around 40 over people enjoyed our film~ =))
came back late today because of a certain someone.I am thankful for everything you have done.I have said it umpteem times.the scars you have left for me in the past is too too deep.let me keep the past good memories.please.dont haunt me anymore.I will break down..
I dont want to continue talking about it.and you have someone always there for you..please..cherish her..dont live in regrets..shes the one you should treasure..
hmm.just realised stores layout are super tough to draw.hahas.Its not my strength.but I will try hard. =)




life still moves on..









the misses are increasing..

If I am playing games like playstation,xbox or whatsoever..I wish i can keep on levelling up..but.. thing is what shouldnt be levelling up just keep on climbing its way up to the top.. >.<
I am referring to projects.I loved them.the best motivation to keep me moving on and not fall.hahas.retarded isnt it. *nods*
I will never get into this line in the future..too stressful to take it as a career..Its my passion..so I will work on something related but hopefully i can get an office job but not sitting inside from 9 to 6 or later than that.I will call for 995.hahas.i need a job that allows me to work indoor and outdoor.and if I have my own family in the future,of course they will be my priority. =))
striking a balance isnt easy.but human state of mind.lots of psychoing job to be done.hahas.
life is not all about work.so lets talk about something else.hmm.
outings with my besties..have been good..hehe
few happenings lately to a few of my good friends..I know its very hard to go through tough times..but you all will definitely be able to handle it well one okay..hang in there~I am a phone call away..and thanks for the in depth sharings.thanks alot for trusting me. =)
Its april anyway~may 21st celebrating 21st~~wheee. *I am not hinting anything ah* =P I am just being excited..for fun..hahas..but defintiely not mad..hehe. maybe nothing will happen on that day.. =X I will just stay home to rot or go out shop,sing with my friends or?? hmm.dont know.ahhas.There may be a few advance celebrations.lala.I am not thick skinned.I am just saying 'may be'.hahas. =P
very long never watch movies already.. =( about four months? =(
now that i went to zoo with my 2 besties.i want go explore..other places.hahas.
there may be a studying trip to hong kong around..dont know.waiting for confirmation.
want go overseas! =( ='(
and i want do more voluntary work~~ =)
my ipod go crazy nowadays..so irritating..boo..
same goes for my handphone..i never even dropped my handphone..why so sot one.argh.i think too many photos and songs inside already. =X
but I must admit sony ericsson phone camera are good. =))

MOREeeeeeeeee updates..
i have some work to do..and then..i will drop dead..hahas.. * hug my pigggggs and everything on my bed* =))




I saw him on Saturday Night.
I said hello.I remained so calm.
but after which.I felt very sad.
I know my misses for him never lessened.and yes.
Its a fact I love him alot.





I can only keep my love for him deep inside my heart.
can I express out the feelings in me all these while? I really want to.



I wish I can walk to him.just a few steps nearer.to stand beside him.and care for him.
I dont have the rights already..isnt it?
I am only a friend to him now..am I right?
I am talking to myself on my blog and I know I wont get answers..or will I have the answers?







hes on my mind everyday..and I am missing him more and more as days passed~

Some photos taken with mer and ch dearie~~ =))