Finally.I got my off day.hopefully this week will be a slack one.DONT change my schedule pleaseeeee. =(
next week will be preparing for taiwan trip.i think i can finish packing in like less than three days. =P seriously the excitement level seem to drop somehow.
I am going to get a pair of new shoe next week as well.plus my new handphone.i think so?I wanted to trim my hair but decided not to.i also dont know why. =X
two weeks of work going to end soon.i am not going to continue.see how in the future ba. =)
now planning for christmas.i shall make it a memorable one for my close ones. =)
thanks dearie for making my off day a wonderful one. =) 1month plus more..our friendship..the 8th year.. =) I shall have a long post on Jan 09.for you.sound very mushy. =P but really.thanks so much all these years for being there for me whether its joys or sorrows..you always pull me out of any situation I faced..and you never fail to be there for me when i really need someone to have a laugh with me,a shoulder to cry and you have been a great listener.. =)
will see you soon in the upcoming month..togather with my cousin.. =)
going to start thinking what christmas gifts to get for my close ones. =)
and i will try meet as many people as possible for the upcoming month..I am sorry friends..my shcedule is a little tight at times..I will try to meet you all okay.. =) but dec 12 to 20 i will not be in singapore so do not contact me during that period okay.. =)
workplace have been pretty happening.i shall update about my workplace after this week. =)
I got to meet a few really nice friends.. =) and of course theres some meanies too.. =P









last night.she isolated herself.and she teared.she didnt really sleep.her heart aches so badly.but she didnt utter a single word the entire night to any of her close ones.she didnt make any calls to her besties.she didnt message them too.she just silently teared..with the accompany of a box of tissue paper..
she was not shocked by the messages she received.because shes fully aware about everything already..she didnt run away..she just want to face the situation in a very optimistic way..
her past made her realised she cant be too emotional..she have to control when shes outside with friends and people she faced..she cant let her emotions went out of control..she have to try solve everything in a calm and rational way..
she thought she will stay single for her entire life..because she intended to do so after the first failure..because the blow is way too huge..she really decided to close the door of her heart..because someone she loved so much actually hurt her too deep for her to recover.after two years..miracle happened..one day she met him..someone who melts her heart..and with contacts and etc..and time passed.. she knew she is really ready for a new rela..so she entered..
shes aware of the situation he is facing..but she really hopes to help him..wishing one day she can help him overcome the obstacle that has been staying in his heart..she knew what is going on throughout..but she told herself its okay..love is selfless giving..love is forgiveness and grace..isnt it..she knows nothing gold can last forever..life is so unpredictable..who knows what the future hold for him and her..but she still hope one day he will love him with all his heart..she doesnt know what kind of feeling he is looking..because in every diff rela..the feeling is different..she doesnt know how to help get the feeling back..and due to his commitments in army..both of them can only get to meet once per week or when theres time..so how can she help find the feeling back..she have been trying her best..but she feels so useless..but still put on a smile..everyday..she really feels very helpless when she sees him stress..she can only teared quietly..
she feels shes not worthy of his love..because she wanted him to be happy but doesnt seem to be able to make him happy..
all these while she loved him wholeheartedly..but she knows how he feels for her..hes still lost..not knowing what to do..she knows all these will take some time..so she never hurry him or add on extra stress to him..and shes contented as long as she gets messages from him..it doesnt matter how he treat her..because she understand hes in a difficult position..
shes so upset..even till now..no more cries..but tears still..
when she is alone waiting for train..or buses..shes in a daze..and theres tears in her eyes..but after that control it..because she want to live up promise to be happy once again..she will be fine very soon..by tomorow.. =)
shes very sad..but she knows she have tasks on hand too..so she must try balance everything well..
her heart never aches so badly like now..she really treasure him alot..
but she will be okay..and she definitely will.. =)
she loves him..and she will understand him no matter what.. =)
let nature take its course..
she went for her swim..and she stopped her tears..shes going to be very strong..and from the bottom from her heart..she really wish she can tell him she loves him..when she sees him..she really wants to hug him tight when she sees him..one day..if he really leave her..she told herself she must understand him..