Its very hurtful and painful to know every truth in every matter.well,no matter how far I run..can never reach the final destination because theres absolutely no way i can run away.

this is life.

If one place herself in a very pitiful state,ever thought of people whos suffering..troubling over three meals..worrying about utilities bills..and how their future will be like..so nowadays before I got too emotional..i will think twice..

when I feel I am the ONLY one facing stress..whos not facing it..appearances are deceiving..who knows whats hiding underneath those people who are living condos..driving bmw..working as a ceo in a big company..maybe they are facing worst kind of stress I can never imagine?maybe my stress is just a training so that i can cope better when I am out to society to work?perhaps I should really be more optimistic once again..and brace up..no matter how tough life is going to be..I already knew life is never easy and is full of sufferings..I shall save my everyday..and make it a better one..isnt it better?

or should i really cry my hearts out..once and for all..but I am sure I am going to tear as long as theres some happenings that will never stop me from holding my tears..

ironic thoughts.

I guessed everyone see 'stress' differently.my dad often told me..bear with it..control..and i will be able to see light ahead..

I think I have seen too much darkness..I feel negative at times..no matter how strong i am..i still have my weak side..

i know whatever happens..i will always have support from my close friends,my family and my uncle all.BUT.i cant rely on them forever..and for now,I pray to god..please bless my uncle with good health..during childhood times when my parents were busying working..my uncle family have been taking care of me..and i have a very very very close bonding with my uncle..all the memeories he had given me..I never forget and will never forget.all I know now is..I have to visit him very often and take care of him..

i told myself and my close ones..I will stay very strong and pull through tough times..but if one day,i really feel i need get out of all those terrible horrible shit and etc..when its beyond my control..i will make a choice..and i know i will have support from my family,close friends and my uncle all. =)

I am numb.because I dont feel anything..when I am having a high fever..when I am feeling so sick and seriously need to see doctor..

everyday different happenings.good or bad.life still have to move on..
seriously..sometimes i feel kinda tiring..live happily as a child..live with worries and anxiety during sec and tertiary times..fear results are bad..fear for these and that..create so much stress for oneself..come to society to work..hoping to earn lots of money..to satisfy own wants..people play politics..to achieve what they want..and again,stress..much more stress compared to schooling times..after that..people worry again..for what i dont know..all i can say is the stress is never ending..and when one can finally take a break..he or she realised..health is starting to give them problems..and worries is here again..plus sufferings..sometimes..dont understand life..
but since we humas are in this world..guess there is no turning back also..so shall make full use of everyday..by living it to fullest..i will try to cheer myself up..feeling too emotional these days..guess art industry is really lots and lots of hell..studying this line doesnt mean i will end up getting into this line..so i will carefully make a correct choice..

I used to have alot of dreams in the past..hoping to earn lots of money..eat well and live a good life..thinking that what will truly makes me happy all all these.I am wrong.totally wrong.

every little setbacks I faced..my thinking changes..
all I want now is true happiness..lots of money wont make me smile from my heart..and money is never enough and one can never stop earning it.but being contented with what i have and treasuring it is more important than anything else..only this way,i will feel happier..

简单就是幸福。

anyway,life is so busy as usual..i shant elaborate much on it..
I have yet to find any holiday job..boo.

I wish..to go Sydney with my loved one..I really loved the scenery there..and i really hope someday..i can travel around with my loved one..let go of all stress..and go overseas to enjoy.. =)

spore too small..hahas..

I want a camera..still saving $ to get one..my cameras are all lagging..need to retire already..ahahas..

hmm.thats all for now..take care everyone.. =))