First of all,I would like to wish everyone a Happy Chinese New Year! moo moo! I am sorry that the grettings came a little bit late.hehe.

getting to meet all cousins and relatives were great.Jadon is going to be three years old this coming August.hes getting more cheeky.hahas.running to me..going so near to my face wanting to kiss my lips.hahas.but hes cute la.very sweet boy boy.hehe.
saw nicholas(19),glen(20),bjorn(18).oh my..they are getting more and more handsome..hahas.and their height all arounbd 180 to 185.goodness.this is crazy.and here,I would like to defend myself.that is I am not short.I am not a dwarf.say it again and you are at risk! hahas. 160 okay ma? Hor? =P
and they are only 18,19 and the other one 20.so tall.madness.we were discussing about jcs and nafa.then I remembered..1 used to be from victoria jc..the other anglo chinese jc and the youngest one..taking his A levels this year Catholic jc.they were all praising their own school.so how can i miss out mine,isnt it?hahas.
seriously..they always feel they are perfect guys..who have the skin colour..the figure..the looks and the brain.I agree to a certain extend la.hahas.and they always insist they are GOOD GUYS. *Faint*
okay.just a joke..we do joke if we are not cousins..how nice it will be huh.lol.then we can be togather..but we ran out of topics la..so yarhs..just finding something to talk..hahahahahas.
one of my cousins was chatting with me about relationships.then he mentioned I should get myself a boyfriend.and reason is because I am 20.hahas.crazy.say I need to settle down..and etc..and somemore plan for me.lol.bua tahan.then he told me how he broke up with his ex.and etc.a very nice cousin. =)
hmm.emotions suddenly went round and round in my mind.not knwoing how to answer.when he asked me..so are you attached? and etc.hmm this questions seems very hard to avoid..because alot of people will always asked.as usual,I will smile and not answer anything..
hmm then this cousin of mine continued to chat..and went to reminisce the past.hahas.telling me about younger times..how noisy I am..and etc...lol..I cant even really remember..but feel quite happy when he say I have quietened down compared to the past..though I am still that active and chatty.hahas.
hmm..went to ym mum and dad side..realised all cousins loved to play blackjack..so being forced to join in..I am happy I won! hahas.
now moving on to mum side..besides playing balckjack..they introduced me to cheater.hahas.and they play board games AGAIN. hahas.quite fun la.what uno spin.what disney monopoly.everyone just scream and scream.lol.very excited..hahas..they can play and play the same board games..if you get to see them everyday..my god..not tired at all one..hahas.
hmm..red packets is not the main focus here..I believed seeing everyone in harmony is something worth to be joy for. =))
lately a little slack for my projects..hmm..must add more oil..
I want but that little black skirt! hehe.and etc..hehehehehhee......
video production going to do reports and act out play already! wheee.hopefully it will be fun.. ;)
not feeling very well today..let the power of mind..help me regain all strength.. =))
and going to visit pharmacy today or tomorrow..hmm~




welcome back..
but dont haunt me anymore I beg you.
If this continues..I will break down soon..
I am trying very hard to control myself and not let any of my words hurt you..
why arent you letting me off.
why must you hurt me again and again.
what should i do before all these end.
let me have a good impression of you..can I?
let me remember the good times.and forget the bad times.
please.
dont hurt me anymore..I dont wish to cry.
If you really care..then dont hurt me.
by haunting me everyday,you are not caring for me..
you are forcing me to accept..your decisions..
you know thats impossible..
if you didnt tell me the big lie..if you didnt ruined the second chance we gave one another..to make the relationship last..and if you didnt treat my efforts of salvaging the relationship as rubbish..and etc etc..we may have last it till now..years have passed..let it go..its too too too hurtful for me to say anything more now..
please..please let me off..
I am just a girl..ordinary girl..I just want everything to be simple..I dont want hurt..I am very afraid of hurt..Very.
dont try to asure yourself what might be wrong must be correct.you are only ruining everything..
she is waiting for you..
treasure what you have..and you will see happiness.