每一天，就算心理并不是真正快乐，我还是把生活过的充实。
我不断的前进。。就算在每个方面都能够应付。。
我还是觉得自己是个失败者。
我的心好痛。心理下了一场好大的雨。
我在雨中不停的寻找你，我好想念你。。你知道吗？
但现在我才学会珍惜。。是不是太迟了。。
我就算不放开。。你也会离我而去。。
难道我们真的必须这样结束。。
我好想对你说。。 。。 。。
我爱你。
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
maybe saying too much in my past rela.this time round,I am loss for words now.I only know how to keep quiet and dont know how to expressed out all my feelings.I hide some emotions.In the past,I will work hard to bring back the rela until i know after many tests..we still cant go through or for some reasons..now..I agree on things too easily..I fear I will become too emotional..I fear I will say something wrong..and hurt the other person and myself..I am very sensitive to people's feelings..especially in rela..
I learnt alot from my past rela..really..I am very thankful to someone who once given me the best memories.but also I have let go of all the hurt and pain he had given me.but the scar will stay in my heart forever.and heres something I wish to let you know..the best memories you had given me..I will keep it inside my heart and nothing more.you should treat your gf well now..give her happiness..and dont hurt her..that will be your greatest gift to me..really.you know it yourself the hurt and pain in the past is unimaginable.too scary..you know very well..I am a girl who is very devoted to a rela and dont let go easily..but one incident after another..you know I am at my wits end and near to breaking down.really..forgive me for making a decision now..dont think about anything else now..treat her well..all the best.. .. ..if you dont think too far now..I promise we are still friends..you should treasure what you have now..
I never know I am so useless and stupid..
I never know I am so weak in rela..
I thought I could handle everyth well..
but in rela..I am just nothing.I dont have special ability to bring miracles.
why didnt I treasure what I have..and let him go..why..
why am I tearing these 3 weeks..why am I thinking about him all these while..why..that longing feeling..why is it even in taiwan..hes still on my mind every moment..why..why am i tearing silently when I am in taiwan..why..
I see something in myself..I fail to prove something..I cant even go through a single test or obstacle with him..am I worth to stay in his heart..I wish so much to keep him..but he will run right..i dont know..i fear..my appearance..makes him unhappy right..I dont know..i hope to salvage everything..will make him stressed..am i right..i dont know..my hurt and pain..will someone ever understand..I am so helpless..really very lost..I missed him so much..should I just give up like that..should everything end in this way..why is it ending this way..loving someone..should be walking with him no matter how tough the journey its going to be right..why am I letting him to walk alone..he doesnt allow me to walk with him right..I dont know..I dont have answers to all these questions..I wish my tears can stop..but it never stops..especially inside my heart..
hes someone I wish I can hold him till the endless of time..but I can never be the one for him right..i dont know..
anyway.thanks to my few besties for staying with me all these while..lets treasure the time we have..and lets study hard and play hard togather.. =) sy..alot of things..i can really understand..especially what you are going through now..you will be fine.. =)
I have alot to say..but I will stop here for now..take care all..
he once told me..I am someone who will let go when the string snaps..but I am not..I dont want to let go..
I wish i can share all my happiness with him..
these few weeks made me regret..for not keeping him..
will i ever get to see him again..
the last time when I saw him is the time he bought me two bottles of water..
I learnt alot from my past rela..really..I am very thankful to someone who once given me the best memories.but also I have let go of all the hurt and pain he had given me.but the scar will stay in my heart forever.and heres something I wish to let you know..the best memories you had given me..I will keep it inside my heart and nothing more.you should treat your gf well now..give her happiness..and dont hurt her..that will be your greatest gift to me..really.you know it yourself the hurt and pain in the past is unimaginable.too scary..you know very well..I am a girl who is very devoted to a rela and dont let go easily..but one incident after another..you know I am at my wits end and near to breaking down.really..forgive me for making a decision now..dont think about anything else now..treat her well..all the best.. .. ..if you dont think too far now..I promise we are still friends..you should treasure what you have now..
I never know I am so useless and stupid..
I never know I am so weak in rela..
I thought I could handle everyth well..
but in rela..I am just nothing.I dont have special ability to bring miracles.
why didnt I treasure what I have..and let him go..why..
why am I tearing these 3 weeks..why am I thinking about him all these while..why..that longing feeling..why is it even in taiwan..hes still on my mind every moment..why..why am i tearing silently when I am in taiwan..why..
I see something in myself..I fail to prove something..I cant even go through a single test or obstacle with him..am I worth to stay in his heart..I wish so much to keep him..but he will run right..i dont know..i fear..my appearance..makes him unhappy right..I dont know..i hope to salvage everything..will make him stressed..am i right..i dont know..my hurt and pain..will someone ever understand..I am so helpless..really very lost..I missed him so much..should I just give up like that..should everything end in this way..why is it ending this way..loving someone..should be walking with him no matter how tough the journey its going to be right..why am I letting him to walk alone..he doesnt allow me to walk with him right..I dont know..I dont have answers to all these questions..I wish my tears can stop..but it never stops..especially inside my heart..
hes someone I wish I can hold him till the endless of time..but I can never be the one for him right..i dont know..
anyway.thanks to my few besties for staying with me all these while..lets treasure the time we have..and lets study hard and play hard togather.. =) sy..alot of things..i can really understand..especially what you are going through now..you will be fine.. =)
I have alot to say..but I will stop here for now..take care all..
he once told me..I am someone who will let go when the string snaps..but I am not..I dont want to let go..
I wish i can share all my happiness with him..
these few weeks made me regret..for not keeping him..
will i ever get to see him again..
the last time when I saw him is the time he bought me two bottles of water..
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
he meant so much to her..
but her emotions cant went out of control..not supposed to have the longing feeling..but why is it still hanging around..after weeks..
she only expressed her feelings to herself..because again and again..she knows the answers herself.. .. ..she told herself..his happiness is what that matters most..so she got to control her emotions..
Merry Christmas to all..
[she wished she can have him by her side to celebrate this Christmas.. .. ..]
[shes dreaming again..]
but her emotions cant went out of control..not supposed to have the longing feeling..but why is it still hanging around..after weeks..
she only expressed her feelings to herself..because again and again..she knows the answers herself.. .. ..she told herself..his happiness is what that matters most..so she got to control her emotions..
Merry Christmas to all..
[she wished she can have him by her side to celebrate this Christmas.. .. ..]
[shes dreaming again..]
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Good times never lasts.Hello all.I am back from my one week taiwan trip. =)
kinda missed the days when I am over there.the trip made me grow up once again.learnt alot things.and got to see people true colours..especially the ones you have been with them for years but didnt realised they are actually people who are so abcdefg so yarhs.you all know what I meant la huh.hahas.
I am still the one who loves to spread joys to people's life.to chat,to have fun and to be serious when its time to be. =)
Its always best to keep quiet and smile when you see people playing twist and turn games with you.seriously,testing patience.playing mind games skills comes in at this point of time.well,cant be help.to not give myself more troubles..acting dumb is the best solution.let people voice out their unhappiness.If everything goes beyond my control,only then I will give some comments.I am human.I have human rights too,isnt it? =)
lets not talk about other people now.Priority is to do my own part well. =)
really enjoyed myself with my few friends..I have uploaded some photos to friendster so people,can check it out there. ;)
loved shopping over there though main objective is to go there for religion.hehe.through my religion..really learnt alot..and very touched also.. =))
and its a pity cant go wu men fu at taipei to shop.hahas.but never mind.I will save $$$$$$$$$ to go in few years time! and I want hongkong! and sydney!!!!! =P
christmas is reaching..whee..meeting besties and good friends! and will get to see my little JADON! =))
I think I am not the only one who realised that..my few friends do feel the same way as I do too..every year end sure bound to have some happenings one.sigh~
after christmas..I want to read more books..do more researches to prepare for school reopen which is in around 3 weeks time?hahas..a little kiasu la hor.hahas.I want do well.. =)
and 31st Dec!!!!! last day of 2008! wonder how my day will be like..every year on this day i am always stoning at home.. =X
she never forgotten him during that one week trip.
he is always on her mind..
did he forgotten her..
sorry..
she couldnt stop her mind and heart from thinking and having that longing feeling..
she will be able to handle her emotions well..
kinda missed the days when I am over there.the trip made me grow up once again.learnt alot things.and got to see people true colours..especially the ones you have been with them for years but didnt realised they are actually people who are so abcdefg so yarhs.you all know what I meant la huh.hahas.
I am still the one who loves to spread joys to people's life.to chat,to have fun and to be serious when its time to be. =)
Its always best to keep quiet and smile when you see people playing twist and turn games with you.seriously,testing patience.playing mind games skills comes in at this point of time.well,cant be help.to not give myself more troubles..acting dumb is the best solution.let people voice out their unhappiness.If everything goes beyond my control,only then I will give some comments.I am human.I have human rights too,isnt it? =)
lets not talk about other people now.Priority is to do my own part well. =)
really enjoyed myself with my few friends..I have uploaded some photos to friendster so people,can check it out there. ;)
loved shopping over there though main objective is to go there for religion.hehe.through my religion..really learnt alot..and very touched also.. =))
and its a pity cant go wu men fu at taipei to shop.hahas.but never mind.I will save $$$$$$$$$ to go in few years time! and I want hongkong! and sydney!!!!! =P
christmas is reaching..whee..meeting besties and good friends! and will get to see my little JADON! =))
I think I am not the only one who realised that..my few friends do feel the same way as I do too..every year end sure bound to have some happenings one.sigh~
after christmas..I want to read more books..do more researches to prepare for school reopen which is in around 3 weeks time?hahas..a little kiasu la hor.hahas.I want do well.. =)
and 31st Dec!!!!! last day of 2008! wonder how my day will be like..every year on this day i am always stoning at home.. =X
she never forgotten him during that one week trip.
he is always on her mind..
did he forgotten her..
sorry..
she couldnt stop her mind and heart from thinking and having that longing feeling..
she will be able to handle her emotions well..
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
3am flight on friday.
all of sudden..brings me back to some time ago..when someone was away for three weeks..at that time..I wish so much I can go train with him..but thats not possible..still remember on that day..the last day I will get to see him before he fly..I left him with a smile..and teared when I am on my way to take bus..I dont know how to express out my love for him that time..really..I dont know why I can be so useless at times..why cant I just show my feelings bravely..instead of keeping a little inside my heart..I didnt know I am that dumb..
my heart long to be with him..every moment before hes going overseas..when hes over there..I am facing the toughest period.too many tasks on hand.I feel like a failure.but still,I managed to pull through with the support of my besties..and with the determination in me..I never want say die..because I believed 'attitude plays a very big part in my life..right attitude is the key to success..I have come to realised that..and thats not too late..
and during that time..some incidents happened too..though hes not by my side..I have always placed him tight in my mind and heart..I know hes supporting me even though he seem to be very far way from me..toughest period will still passed..and I made it through..really glad..and I know in future..I will be facing more things..so i cant afford to fall..
still remember every day that time..though cant contact much..I pray for him every night before I sleep..hope hes safe over there..now come to think of it..my face wears a smile..
3weeks are not short..but not long too..soon..the awaiting day came..feeling very happy..but the happiness stopped..very soon..I dont know..I really dont know..should everything end this way..why is it ending this way..I have got no answers to these questions..my weak side revealed again now..
at this point of time..my tears went out of control again..
I am sorry.I am weak..
I know at airport tomorrow night..I will cry..dont laugh at me alright..I know..in life,one day can have alot of happenings..so I am really leaving singapore with worries..seems like I am going to cry everytime my friends fly..or my turn to fly..sigh..I feel like a crybaby..hahas..
maybe.
she is not worthy of his love.
she hate herself.
for not being able to give him happiness.
If.
she had a chance.
she wont allow herself to ruin everything.
crying doesnt seems to help.
but she treasure everything too much..
she never knew everything matters so much so much.. ..
she hopes to see him..
her wish cant seem to fufil..
she is going to leave with tears..
and back with tears..
his three weeks.she cant bear to see him go.and she looked forward for him to be back..
her eight days.shes reluctant to leave..and shes going to be back with tears..the longing feeling..the empty feeling..
all of sudden..brings me back to some time ago..when someone was away for three weeks..at that time..I wish so much I can go train with him..but thats not possible..still remember on that day..the last day I will get to see him before he fly..I left him with a smile..and teared when I am on my way to take bus..I dont know how to express out my love for him that time..really..I dont know why I can be so useless at times..why cant I just show my feelings bravely..instead of keeping a little inside my heart..I didnt know I am that dumb..
my heart long to be with him..every moment before hes going overseas..when hes over there..I am facing the toughest period.too many tasks on hand.I feel like a failure.but still,I managed to pull through with the support of my besties..and with the determination in me..I never want say die..because I believed 'attitude plays a very big part in my life..right attitude is the key to success..I have come to realised that..and thats not too late..
and during that time..some incidents happened too..though hes not by my side..I have always placed him tight in my mind and heart..I know hes supporting me even though he seem to be very far way from me..toughest period will still passed..and I made it through..really glad..and I know in future..I will be facing more things..so i cant afford to fall..
still remember every day that time..though cant contact much..I pray for him every night before I sleep..hope hes safe over there..now come to think of it..my face wears a smile..
3weeks are not short..but not long too..soon..the awaiting day came..feeling very happy..but the happiness stopped..very soon..I dont know..I really dont know..should everything end this way..why is it ending this way..I have got no answers to these questions..my weak side revealed again now..
at this point of time..my tears went out of control again..
I am sorry.I am weak..
I know at airport tomorrow night..I will cry..dont laugh at me alright..I know..in life,one day can have alot of happenings..so I am really leaving singapore with worries..seems like I am going to cry everytime my friends fly..or my turn to fly..sigh..I feel like a crybaby..hahas..
maybe.
she is not worthy of his love.
she hate herself.
for not being able to give him happiness.
If.
she had a chance.
she wont allow herself to ruin everything.
crying doesnt seems to help.
but she treasure everything too much..
she never knew everything matters so much so much.. ..
she hopes to see him..
her wish cant seem to fufil..
she is going to leave with tears..
and back with tears..
his three weeks.she cant bear to see him go.and she looked forward for him to be back..
her eight days.shes reluctant to leave..and shes going to be back with tears..the longing feeling..the empty feeling..
well.seems like I have been updating my blog these few days.I gonna miss singapore so much though its only 8days trip.i felt silly though.and I want to go sydney and hongkong and many other places..I am greedy..hehe..
Friday.soon.I should be feeling excited.but thats not really the case.I am quite sad actually.I am going to miss quite some people.those I am really closed with.Uncle,take very good care of yourself okay! qiqi will be fine.. =))
went out with chuan and shuyi today..it was a great outing..we sang alot of 'nice' songs..hahas..and was really super cold..aircon is FOC.lol.and went arcade.tried the new machine! =)) chuan is an expert..hahas..and I went to get some things too.. =))
took some photos.will upload when I am back from my trip.hahas.but sadly,no group pic.. =(
guess I am slowly getting used to my handphone..hehe..
and I saw chinhuat today! and his girlfriend! =))
well,and I saw the auntie I used to work with! so glad to know shes fine.enjoy chatting with her.. =))
I dont know if I am looking forward to christmas this year..but the plans are almost all settled..so yarhs..see how ba..I will make it a great one no matter what..so yea.. =) still,there are free time where i can meet other people..so people if want ask me out,can message me.. =))
she wears a smile in and out everyday.she is not truly happy in her heart.why is that so.
she keeps herself so busy almost everyday.she make an effort to revert back to her old happy self.shes trying hard to make everything fine.
compared to the past,she feels she have grown up alot..but shes a human afterall.
theres love in her heart still.but the love no longer open to anyone anymore..she decided to keep it for him...just keeping it silently..till the day he found his happiness..she will buried the love in her heart..shes aware they are friends..so she didnt say anything..just caring for him..knowing that hes fine..and everything turns out better for him..she will feel glad..
she have been a strong girl.but her weak side always revealed when shes alone.she suppressed her feelings these days.and when alone..she will cry a little.for ten minutes.not all the times.but when she couldnt suppressed her feelings anymore..she will cry..
no worries..shes okay..
she just wants to gives him happiness..but when she try to reach..she will somehow fall..and trying to stand up again..
one has to learn to believe.only then will be able to see hope..
to her..when missing him is a happiness..and not pain..
she understood..this is love..
but she knows that ONE star is moving away from her..
she doesnt know what to do..
life still moves on.and..
she dont know how to put it..
Friday.soon.I should be feeling excited.but thats not really the case.I am quite sad actually.I am going to miss quite some people.those I am really closed with.Uncle,take very good care of yourself okay! qiqi will be fine.. =))
went out with chuan and shuyi today..it was a great outing..we sang alot of 'nice' songs..hahas..and was really super cold..aircon is FOC.lol.and went arcade.tried the new machine! =)) chuan is an expert..hahas..and I went to get some things too.. =))
took some photos.will upload when I am back from my trip.hahas.but sadly,no group pic.. =(
guess I am slowly getting used to my handphone..hehe..
and I saw chinhuat today! and his girlfriend! =))
well,and I saw the auntie I used to work with! so glad to know shes fine.enjoy chatting with her.. =))
I dont know if I am looking forward to christmas this year..but the plans are almost all settled..so yarhs..see how ba..I will make it a great one no matter what..so yea.. =) still,there are free time where i can meet other people..so people if want ask me out,can message me.. =))
she wears a smile in and out everyday.she is not truly happy in her heart.why is that so.
she keeps herself so busy almost everyday.she make an effort to revert back to her old happy self.shes trying hard to make everything fine.
compared to the past,she feels she have grown up alot..but shes a human afterall.
theres love in her heart still.but the love no longer open to anyone anymore..she decided to keep it for him...just keeping it silently..till the day he found his happiness..she will buried the love in her heart..shes aware they are friends..so she didnt say anything..just caring for him..knowing that hes fine..and everything turns out better for him..she will feel glad..
she have been a strong girl.but her weak side always revealed when shes alone.she suppressed her feelings these days.and when alone..she will cry a little.for ten minutes.not all the times.but when she couldnt suppressed her feelings anymore..she will cry..
no worries..shes okay..
she just wants to gives him happiness..but when she try to reach..she will somehow fall..and trying to stand up again..
one has to learn to believe.only then will be able to see hope..
to her..when missing him is a happiness..and not pain..
she understood..this is love..
but she knows that ONE star is moving away from her..
she doesnt know what to do..
life still moves on.and..
she dont know how to put it..
Monday, December 8, 2008
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Thanks so much so much mummy.She got me a small emboriodery backpack.and it cost $40.very expensive.felt so bad after she made the payment.shouldnt have made her spent.. so much..just because I said I liked it alot..and was staring at it for quite some time..
she got me one pair of shoe..for trekking?hahas..i loved the texture and the design..and my dad got me a pair of leather shoe..white colour..very cool..i loved it too.. =)
mummy say I have got really nice accessories..hahas..I have spent years collecting it..and alot are very unique..and she was wondering what I accessories I will be wearing for tomorrow wedding dinner..hahas..i told her nothing complicated..simple and nice..I loved my grey dress the most..plus another dark grey one..but I will be wearing a light green dress tomorrow..dont know why..no mood for grey dress?grey colour very emo leh.. =X hopefully green one looks good? =) will definitely upload photos.. =)
but dont laugh if I look ugly ah.. =(
i think I can pack luggage really very fast..hahas..'phyphy' must be enjoying herself in hongkong now.. =)
christmas plannings are more or less plan already..but still have some free time in between..so people..if you all want meet me..can let me know the time alright.. =)
still havent get use to using my new handphone.. =(
flying in few days time..must shop shop shop.. =)
somehow..the excitement level no longer rise..it goes down instead..sigh..guess only I know the reason myself..
I think the colouring looks aweful..was trying to help cousin with the colouring of illustrations..her school standard really weird..hahas..its okay..I will try my best yea.. ;)
monday public holiday..meeting ft clique..going new cafe..whee..but will be a short day..I guess? =)
was thinking of some new theme for my upcoming projects..and stealing some ideas from my cousin..muahahas..so I wont have a headache..evil huh..hahas.. =P
cant wait to see my besties..sigh..wait for me to come back okay girls! =)
lux..want meet me before I fly ah?
hmm..I was wondering whos the smiley face..the one who tag my board..I guessed the person..is..sy?hahas..
anyway..glad to know chuan didnt take up the job! =)
and got people say I photogenic..hahas..I didnt know..u all want make me happy so say that right! hahahahahas..
hmm..i want watch Phantom of the Opera..anyone got the dvd or what?hahas..
well..thats all for now.. =)
smiles and laughter..hiding underneath..only she knows..
its okay..shes fine..
she wish for a miracle..she missed him.
Halfway round the globe,the star loses its light,she tried to reach out with all her might but she just couldnt grab..As the star she yearn so much..continue to fade away..all she saw was darkness and a dim of light still..she dig and dig towards..hoping to see him..
she got me one pair of shoe..for trekking?hahas..i loved the texture and the design..and my dad got me a pair of leather shoe..white colour..very cool..i loved it too.. =)
mummy say I have got really nice accessories..hahas..I have spent years collecting it..and alot are very unique..and she was wondering what I accessories I will be wearing for tomorrow wedding dinner..hahas..i told her nothing complicated..simple and nice..I loved my grey dress the most..plus another dark grey one..but I will be wearing a light green dress tomorrow..dont know why..no mood for grey dress?grey colour very emo leh.. =X hopefully green one looks good? =) will definitely upload photos.. =)
but dont laugh if I look ugly ah.. =(
i think I can pack luggage really very fast..hahas..'phyphy' must be enjoying herself in hongkong now.. =)
christmas plannings are more or less plan already..but still have some free time in between..so people..if you all want meet me..can let me know the time alright.. =)
still havent get use to using my new handphone.. =(
flying in few days time..must shop shop shop.. =)
somehow..the excitement level no longer rise..it goes down instead..sigh..guess only I know the reason myself..
I think the colouring looks aweful..was trying to help cousin with the colouring of illustrations..her school standard really weird..hahas..its okay..I will try my best yea.. ;)
monday public holiday..meeting ft clique..going new cafe..whee..but will be a short day..I guess? =)
was thinking of some new theme for my upcoming projects..and stealing some ideas from my cousin..muahahas..so I wont have a headache..evil huh..hahas.. =P
cant wait to see my besties..sigh..wait for me to come back okay girls! =)
lux..want meet me before I fly ah?
hmm..I was wondering whos the smiley face..the one who tag my board..I guessed the person..is..sy?hahas..
anyway..glad to know chuan didnt take up the job! =)
and got people say I photogenic..hahas..I didnt know..u all want make me happy so say that right! hahahahahas..
hmm..i want watch Phantom of the Opera..anyone got the dvd or what?hahas..
well..thats all for now.. =)
smiles and laughter..hiding underneath..only she knows..
its okay..shes fine..
she wish for a miracle..she missed him.
Halfway round the globe,the star loses its light,she tried to reach out with all her might but she just couldnt grab..As the star she yearn so much..continue to fade away..all she saw was darkness and a dim of light still..she dig and dig towards..hoping to see him..
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
my last day of work..ended well.but was very very busy.the tons of boxes of stocks.and the bazzar stocks.and the packing and everything.the dust made my nose so itchy..and I sneezed like no one business.my god.I pray I dont get sick.phew..I am fine..shoo shoo medicine..
well..pay will be after christmas..this is super depressing..no choice but to wait..
have been saving money..and I am still feeling broke..I will be flying to taiwan next friday..hope to be able to get something nice for my close ones..and lux..I wont forget to get something for you.. =) you and the other two so mean.. =P how can laughed at me..you say i silly somemore..you know what I meant okay! you! humph.but that time was a very memorable way of seeing her off okay..I see her cry for the FIRST time leh.hahas.one just came back.another one flying to hongkong this friday.and yes.dont forget your highness is flying next friday.hahas.and you..erm..flying next next friday? =XX anyway..thanks ah..your blog..hahas..what a post..say I copy your idol..that idea not I came up one leh..hahas..but thanks thanks..I know I am your beloved..hahas..I am very touched but I wont cry.. =P
we shall meet soon..soon.. =)
dearie,I missed you alot..will see you around christmas alright..meanwhile,take care..coming to 8years of friendship..wa..time files..and I wont forget the belated birthday celebration.. =) I have got little surprises for you.. =) and my cousin will be joining..I will make the outing a memorable one for you and my cousin.. =) anyway,thanks for the messages and call today..take care at work okay.. =)
abby,misses! misses! misses.. =( you fly around..but I never forget you said you wanted meet me around christmas..and I saw the pictures..*ahem*..will start interrogating you..hahas..tell me stories okay..hahas..
cousin..sorry if we didnt get to contact so often nowadays..i know you have been very busy with school projects..I will help you whenever you need my help..so dont get too stress..Jiayou.. =)
shuyi dearie..thanks so much so much..for everything..really..and I read the postcard..I am very touched..I teared..and you have talent in drawing..really.. ;)
and thanks for the chinatown trip..and the longgggg walk from fullerton to chinatown..hahas..though we sweat like mad..I guess you are feeling good after that.. =)
and really paiseh ah..I didnt meant to laugh at what you told me regarding that aura tinky..I know you care.. =)
hope you enjoyed this trip..
shihui..I will be seeing you soon yea..dont miss me too much okay..hahas..but feb is reaching soon..aww..I will miss you alot..must send me letter ah..hahas..
and my cousin is going overseas soon too..my god..will be away for quite long also..ahh..misses..and I am glad the mood board pictures were alright.. =)
anyway..went to uncle james house yesterday..I shared with uncle my thoughts and my feelings on some things..I teared..and hugged him..I have made him worried..sorry uncle..I am fine..dont worry anymore.. =) since young,because I am being taken care by my this uncle family..and even after I have grown up to a big girl..they are still here for me regardless of what and always give me the best..others say they have spoilt me..I dont feel that way..because..from them..I learnt to treasure peope around me more..and I become stronger and stronger..I am not spoilt..I can be an independant girl..but when it comes to affairs of the heart..I admit I am not that strong..
anyway..saw my little nephew yesterday..Jadon..boy boy is getting cuter.. =) 2yrs old..but he learnt alot in school..he saw me yesterday..very happy..and sing songs for me..and he talked alot..though a few things he said I dont understand..hahas..I still nod and pretend to understand..hahas..his own language..and I was stoning..he asked me dont worry..sit down..and he clean the floor..and ask me to play toy toy with him..so cute right..hehe..though the way he pronounce words still not accurate..but I feel hes very clever at his age.. =))
I guessed he knew I am stoning.. =XX he brought his little yellow pillow to my lap..lie down..then after that gave me hug hug..very sweet of him..loves jadon boy boy.. =)
and my other friends..I missed you all..hope everyone is doing fine..take care.. =)
she teared.and she have had a bad cry.
her heart aches so so badly but she knows..
she have given him a promise..so she got to stay strong..
the relationship meant so much so much to her..
well..pay will be after christmas..this is super depressing..no choice but to wait..
have been saving money..and I am still feeling broke..I will be flying to taiwan next friday..hope to be able to get something nice for my close ones..and lux..I wont forget to get something for you.. =) you and the other two so mean.. =P how can laughed at me..you say i silly somemore..you know what I meant okay! you! humph.but that time was a very memorable way of seeing her off okay..I see her cry for the FIRST time leh.hahas.one just came back.another one flying to hongkong this friday.and yes.dont forget your highness is flying next friday.hahas.and you..erm..flying next next friday? =XX anyway..thanks ah..your blog..hahas..what a post..say I copy your idol..that idea not I came up one leh..hahas..but thanks thanks..I know I am your beloved..hahas..I am very touched but I wont cry.. =P
we shall meet soon..soon.. =)
dearie,I missed you alot..will see you around christmas alright..meanwhile,take care..coming to 8years of friendship..wa..time files..and I wont forget the belated birthday celebration.. =) I have got little surprises for you.. =) and my cousin will be joining..I will make the outing a memorable one for you and my cousin.. =) anyway,thanks for the messages and call today..take care at work okay.. =)
abby,misses! misses! misses.. =( you fly around..but I never forget you said you wanted meet me around christmas..and I saw the pictures..*ahem*..will start interrogating you..hahas..tell me stories okay..hahas..
cousin..sorry if we didnt get to contact so often nowadays..i know you have been very busy with school projects..I will help you whenever you need my help..so dont get too stress..Jiayou.. =)
shuyi dearie..thanks so much so much..for everything..really..and I read the postcard..I am very touched..I teared..and you have talent in drawing..really.. ;)
and thanks for the chinatown trip..and the longgggg walk from fullerton to chinatown..hahas..though we sweat like mad..I guess you are feeling good after that.. =)
and really paiseh ah..I didnt meant to laugh at what you told me regarding that aura tinky..I know you care.. =)
hope you enjoyed this trip..
shihui..I will be seeing you soon yea..dont miss me too much okay..hahas..but feb is reaching soon..aww..I will miss you alot..must send me letter ah..hahas..
and my cousin is going overseas soon too..my god..will be away for quite long also..ahh..misses..and I am glad the mood board pictures were alright.. =)
anyway..went to uncle james house yesterday..I shared with uncle my thoughts and my feelings on some things..I teared..and hugged him..I have made him worried..sorry uncle..I am fine..dont worry anymore.. =) since young,because I am being taken care by my this uncle family..and even after I have grown up to a big girl..they are still here for me regardless of what and always give me the best..others say they have spoilt me..I dont feel that way..because..from them..I learnt to treasure peope around me more..and I become stronger and stronger..I am not spoilt..I can be an independant girl..but when it comes to affairs of the heart..I admit I am not that strong..
anyway..saw my little nephew yesterday..Jadon..boy boy is getting cuter.. =) 2yrs old..but he learnt alot in school..he saw me yesterday..very happy..and sing songs for me..and he talked alot..though a few things he said I dont understand..hahas..I still nod and pretend to understand..hahas..his own language..and I was stoning..he asked me dont worry..sit down..and he clean the floor..and ask me to play toy toy with him..so cute right..hehe..though the way he pronounce words still not accurate..but I feel hes very clever at his age.. =))
I guessed he knew I am stoning.. =XX he brought his little yellow pillow to my lap..lie down..then after that gave me hug hug..very sweet of him..loves jadon boy boy.. =)
and my other friends..I missed you all..hope everyone is doing fine..take care.. =)
she teared.and she have had a bad cry.
her heart aches so so badly but she knows..
she have given him a promise..so she got to stay strong..
the relationship meant so much so much to her..
Saturday, November 29, 2008
the past two posts have been VERY emo.hmm.but the two posts made me realised..I should not continue to emo anymore.
I have made up my mind.
I want to spread joys to people around me.esp my close ones and the one I loved deeply. =))
In life,many things are so unpredictable.and yes.no doubt underneath happiness,humans ALL have things to trouble and worry.but everything lies in the human state of mind.
no matter how tough life seems to be,I always believed a smile can made someone's day brighten up. =)) and laughters spread..and make people cheer up lots. =))
I am going to stay very strong.of course at certain times..one cant help to feel affected by some matters he or she is troubled with..but being happy will make everything turns out fine! so must be optimistic! =))
more updates soon! Monday last day of work! Sunday OFF! WOO~
the messages..
she really meant it..
and she wished to walk this journey WITH HIM..no matter how tough its going to be..
no matter what happens in the future..no one knows..but she knows she want to treasure him when she still have the chance to..
she loves him.and she misses him lots. =)
I have made up my mind.
I want to spread joys to people around me.esp my close ones and the one I loved deeply. =))
In life,many things are so unpredictable.and yes.no doubt underneath happiness,humans ALL have things to trouble and worry.but everything lies in the human state of mind.
no matter how tough life seems to be,I always believed a smile can made someone's day brighten up. =)) and laughters spread..and make people cheer up lots. =))
I am going to stay very strong.of course at certain times..one cant help to feel affected by some matters he or she is troubled with..but being happy will make everything turns out fine! so must be optimistic! =))
more updates soon! Monday last day of work! Sunday OFF! WOO~
the messages..
she really meant it..
and she wished to walk this journey WITH HIM..no matter how tough its going to be..
no matter what happens in the future..no one knows..but she knows she want to treasure him when she still have the chance to..
she loves him.and she misses him lots. =)
Thursday, November 27, 2008
I feel like tearing.I am touched.really.I am not good in expressing myself.I really thank my besties and few really v gd friends for being here for me always..I didnt know alot people actually read my blog.just that they dont tag.my besties and few v gd friends understand me..they dont probe..they always stay by my side to comfort me..talk me round..care for me..and never give up in persuading me to see life in many different ways..and they know someday when i am ready to share whatever problems i am facing,i will.If i do not wish to share,i will just keep quiet.but whenever i am out with them,no matter how hard i try to put on a smile all day long or to really laugh happily all day long..they still can sensed..[qi is troubled.]even i dont talk much..i still will make every outing a wonderful one with my close ones..i feel that i shouldnt let my things affect my outings with them..
actually..I am fine in all aspects..still living life to the fullest..no worries people.. =))
i read a certain blog..I am very sure the person is me..i dont know why you suddenly came up with that post for me..hmm..maybe you can tell me the reason? =) anyway..I have to thank you..you have really been a great friend all these while..time passed very fast..and you have found your happiness.. =) you always try to reply to my messages no matter how busy you are..and from your messages..i really learnt some things from you..and your messages cheer me up alot.. =) you are my good friend..and will always be.. =) as for the past..really very long ago..why you brought it up..hahas..
and now i have a few people to thank..[if names not mention here,doesnt mean i forgotten you okay.]hahas.
Chewheng.[friendship reaching 8th year. =)]
Meilin.[my cousin.my 'sis'. =)]
Abby.[a true friend.one of my bestie too.and a busy friend as well.hahas.]
U.[you know who you are..hahas..my good friend and "hao jie mei" HA HA. =P]
Shihui.[always here for me to make me laugh..hahas..and thanks for your tag as well as the msn chat.. =)]
Shuyi.[my 'laopo'..my busy friend too..hahas..always supporting me through esp during my tough times..]
and a few more..shall continue the namelist again.. =P
and my current workplace..my colleagues..alot of people to thank..wait till this job ends..then i will put the names up here okay..hahas..we all must cheer up togather! few more days only! hang in there! =))
she dont wish to be drifted apart from him..
but she knows nothing gold can last forever..
she wish to bring him happiness..
she dont know what the future holds for them..
she dont want to let him see her tears..
she wants him to feel loved..
she hopes to see him smile..from his heart..
she loves him..and she really do..
she will treasure every time spent with him..as long as she gets to see him..
she really cares for him..and..
she will stay strong..very strong..
will he let her love him..
actually..I am fine in all aspects..still living life to the fullest..no worries people.. =))
i read a certain blog..I am very sure the person is me..i dont know why you suddenly came up with that post for me..hmm..maybe you can tell me the reason? =) anyway..I have to thank you..you have really been a great friend all these while..time passed very fast..and you have found your happiness.. =) you always try to reply to my messages no matter how busy you are..and from your messages..i really learnt some things from you..and your messages cheer me up alot.. =) you are my good friend..and will always be.. =) as for the past..really very long ago..why you brought it up..hahas..
and now i have a few people to thank..[if names not mention here,doesnt mean i forgotten you okay.]hahas.
Chewheng.[friendship reaching 8th year. =)]
Meilin.[my cousin.my 'sis'. =)]
Abby.[a true friend.one of my bestie too.and a busy friend as well.hahas.]
U.[you know who you are..hahas..my good friend and "hao jie mei" HA HA. =P]
Shihui.[always here for me to make me laugh..hahas..and thanks for your tag as well as the msn chat.. =)]
Shuyi.[my 'laopo'..my busy friend too..hahas..always supporting me through esp during my tough times..]
and a few more..shall continue the namelist again.. =P
and my current workplace..my colleagues..alot of people to thank..wait till this job ends..then i will put the names up here okay..hahas..we all must cheer up togather! few more days only! hang in there! =))
she dont wish to be drifted apart from him..
but she knows nothing gold can last forever..
she wish to bring him happiness..
she dont know what the future holds for them..
she dont want to let him see her tears..
she wants him to feel loved..
she hopes to see him smile..from his heart..
she loves him..and she really do..
she will treasure every time spent with him..as long as she gets to see him..
she really cares for him..and..
she will stay strong..very strong..
will he let her love him..
Monday, November 24, 2008
Finally.I got my off day.hopefully this week will be a slack one.DONT change my schedule pleaseeeee. =(
next week will be preparing for taiwan trip.i think i can finish packing in like less than three days. =P seriously the excitement level seem to drop somehow.
I am going to get a pair of new shoe next week as well.plus my new handphone.i think so?I wanted to trim my hair but decided not to.i also dont know why. =X
two weeks of work going to end soon.i am not going to continue.see how in the future ba. =)
now planning for christmas.i shall make it a memorable one for my close ones. =)
thanks dearie for making my off day a wonderful one. =) 1month plus more..our friendship..the 8th year.. =) I shall have a long post on Jan 09.for you.sound very mushy. =P but really.thanks so much all these years for being there for me whether its joys or sorrows..you always pull me out of any situation I faced..and you never fail to be there for me when i really need someone to have a laugh with me,a shoulder to cry and you have been a great listener.. =)
will see you soon in the upcoming month..togather with my cousin.. =)
going to start thinking what christmas gifts to get for my close ones. =)
and i will try meet as many people as possible for the upcoming month..I am sorry friends..my shcedule is a little tight at times..I will try to meet you all okay.. =) but dec 12 to 20 i will not be in singapore so do not contact me during that period okay.. =)
workplace have been pretty happening.i shall update about my workplace after this week. =)
I got to meet a few really nice friends.. =) and of course theres some meanies too.. =P
last night.she isolated herself.and she teared.she didnt really sleep.her heart aches so badly.but she didnt utter a single word the entire night to any of her close ones.she didnt make any calls to her besties.she didnt message them too.she just silently teared..with the accompany of a box of tissue paper..
she was not shocked by the messages she received.because shes fully aware about everything already..she didnt run away..she just want to face the situation in a very optimistic way..
her past made her realised she cant be too emotional..she have to control when shes outside with friends and people she faced..she cant let her emotions went out of control..she have to try solve everything in a calm and rational way..
she thought she will stay single for her entire life..because she intended to do so after the first failure..because the blow is way too huge..she really decided to close the door of her heart..because someone she loved so much actually hurt her too deep for her to recover.after two years..miracle happened..one day she met him..someone who melts her heart..and with contacts and etc..and time passed.. she knew she is really ready for a new rela..so she entered..
shes aware of the situation he is facing..but she really hopes to help him..wishing one day she can help him overcome the obstacle that has been staying in his heart..she knew what is going on throughout..but she told herself its okay..love is selfless giving..love is forgiveness and grace..isnt it..she knows nothing gold can last forever..life is so unpredictable..who knows what the future hold for him and her..but she still hope one day he will love him with all his heart..she doesnt know what kind of feeling he is looking..because in every diff rela..the feeling is different..she doesnt know how to help get the feeling back..and due to his commitments in army..both of them can only get to meet once per week or when theres time..so how can she help find the feeling back..she have been trying her best..but she feels so useless..but still put on a smile..everyday..she really feels very helpless when she sees him stress..she can only teared quietly..
she feels shes not worthy of his love..because she wanted him to be happy but doesnt seem to be able to make him happy..
all these while she loved him wholeheartedly..but she knows how he feels for her..hes still lost..not knowing what to do..she knows all these will take some time..so she never hurry him or add on extra stress to him..and shes contented as long as she gets messages from him..it doesnt matter how he treat her..because she understand hes in a difficult position..
shes so upset..even till now..no more cries..but tears still..
when she is alone waiting for train..or buses..shes in a daze..and theres tears in her eyes..but after that control it..because she want to live up promise to be happy once again..she will be fine very soon..by tomorow.. =)
shes very sad..but she knows she have tasks on hand too..so she must try balance everything well..
her heart never aches so badly like now..she really treasure him alot..
but she will be okay..and she definitely will.. =)
she loves him..and she will understand him no matter what.. =)
let nature take its course..
she went for her swim..and she stopped her tears..shes going to be very strong..and from the bottom from her heart..she really wish she can tell him she loves him..when she sees him..she really wants to hug him tight when she sees him..one day..if he really leave her..she told herself she must understand him..
next week will be preparing for taiwan trip.i think i can finish packing in like less than three days. =P seriously the excitement level seem to drop somehow.
I am going to get a pair of new shoe next week as well.plus my new handphone.i think so?I wanted to trim my hair but decided not to.i also dont know why. =X
two weeks of work going to end soon.i am not going to continue.see how in the future ba. =)
now planning for christmas.i shall make it a memorable one for my close ones. =)
thanks dearie for making my off day a wonderful one. =) 1month plus more..our friendship..the 8th year.. =) I shall have a long post on Jan 09.for you.sound very mushy. =P but really.thanks so much all these years for being there for me whether its joys or sorrows..you always pull me out of any situation I faced..and you never fail to be there for me when i really need someone to have a laugh with me,a shoulder to cry and you have been a great listener.. =)
will see you soon in the upcoming month..togather with my cousin.. =)
going to start thinking what christmas gifts to get for my close ones. =)
and i will try meet as many people as possible for the upcoming month..I am sorry friends..my shcedule is a little tight at times..I will try to meet you all okay.. =) but dec 12 to 20 i will not be in singapore so do not contact me during that period okay.. =)
workplace have been pretty happening.i shall update about my workplace after this week. =)
I got to meet a few really nice friends.. =) and of course theres some meanies too.. =P
last night.she isolated herself.and she teared.she didnt really sleep.her heart aches so badly.but she didnt utter a single word the entire night to any of her close ones.she didnt make any calls to her besties.she didnt message them too.she just silently teared..with the accompany of a box of tissue paper..
she was not shocked by the messages she received.because shes fully aware about everything already..she didnt run away..she just want to face the situation in a very optimistic way..
her past made her realised she cant be too emotional..she have to control when shes outside with friends and people she faced..she cant let her emotions went out of control..she have to try solve everything in a calm and rational way..
she thought she will stay single for her entire life..because she intended to do so after the first failure..because the blow is way too huge..she really decided to close the door of her heart..because someone she loved so much actually hurt her too deep for her to recover.after two years..miracle happened..one day she met him..someone who melts her heart..and with contacts and etc..and time passed.. she knew she is really ready for a new rela..so she entered..
shes aware of the situation he is facing..but she really hopes to help him..wishing one day she can help him overcome the obstacle that has been staying in his heart..she knew what is going on throughout..but she told herself its okay..love is selfless giving..love is forgiveness and grace..isnt it..she knows nothing gold can last forever..life is so unpredictable..who knows what the future hold for him and her..but she still hope one day he will love him with all his heart..she doesnt know what kind of feeling he is looking..because in every diff rela..the feeling is different..she doesnt know how to help get the feeling back..and due to his commitments in army..both of them can only get to meet once per week or when theres time..so how can she help find the feeling back..she have been trying her best..but she feels so useless..but still put on a smile..everyday..she really feels very helpless when she sees him stress..she can only teared quietly..
she feels shes not worthy of his love..because she wanted him to be happy but doesnt seem to be able to make him happy..
all these while she loved him wholeheartedly..but she knows how he feels for her..hes still lost..not knowing what to do..she knows all these will take some time..so she never hurry him or add on extra stress to him..and shes contented as long as she gets messages from him..it doesnt matter how he treat her..because she understand hes in a difficult position..
shes so upset..even till now..no more cries..but tears still..
when she is alone waiting for train..or buses..shes in a daze..and theres tears in her eyes..but after that control it..because she want to live up promise to be happy once again..she will be fine very soon..by tomorow.. =)
shes very sad..but she knows she have tasks on hand too..so she must try balance everything well..
her heart never aches so badly like now..she really treasure him alot..
but she will be okay..and she definitely will.. =)
she loves him..and she will understand him no matter what.. =)
let nature take its course..
she went for her swim..and she stopped her tears..shes going to be very strong..and from the bottom from her heart..she really wish she can tell him she loves him..when she sees him..she really wants to hug him tight when she sees him..one day..if he really leave her..she told herself she must understand him..
Thursday, November 13, 2008
I shant elaborate more about my assessment day.well,to conclude,I am pretty "lucky" because HOD went in when its my turn. >.<
and this is not the first time.It happens for my every assessment.this is gonna be interesting.in a way,i think?oh well,I shut my mouth whenever its necessary.hah.
if anyone does read my so-called emo post..on how lousy i feel when i knew assessment is just one day away..yea.NOW.I shall announce ASSESSMENT day is OVER! WOOHOO~guess what? party time! ahahahahs. *throwing pillows* *jumping around on bed* *singing and dancing around like no one business* *yearning to hug 'someone' RIGHT NOW* hehe. =P
Seriously,past weeks have been tough.Its too insane to imagine.really.those days are meant to be remembered for life.hahas.nightmares.my god.that kind of stress.I dotn wanna think about it now.hahas.
assessment surprisingly turns out fine for me..hehe..dont wanna talk much on it already..I will work very very hard when sem 2 arrives..a promise to myself.. =))
I am broke.I am looking for sales.hahas.i want movies.i want shopping.i want sports.i want more outings.I got a part time job.working for calvin klein.not going back past jobs. =)
have been very lazy.I didnt want prepare things for my upcoming taiwan trip.hahas.
I cant wait for XMAS! every xmas meant so much to me and my cliques. =) this year,xmas celebration shall be a little different.I wish to take out time for someone. =))
hmm.MORE MORE MORE outings! hee.tomorrow meeting abby! and will be able to see my cousin and her clique too! wheewhee! need to go down to paragon calvin klein for some things also. =))
*misses*
and this is not the first time.It happens for my every assessment.this is gonna be interesting.in a way,i think?oh well,I shut my mouth whenever its necessary.hah.
if anyone does read my so-called emo post..on how lousy i feel when i knew assessment is just one day away..yea.NOW.I shall announce ASSESSMENT day is OVER! WOOHOO~guess what? party time! ahahahahs. *throwing pillows* *jumping around on bed* *singing and dancing around like no one business* *yearning to hug 'someone' RIGHT NOW* hehe. =P
Seriously,past weeks have been tough.Its too insane to imagine.really.those days are meant to be remembered for life.hahas.nightmares.my god.that kind of stress.I dotn wanna think about it now.hahas.
assessment surprisingly turns out fine for me..hehe..dont wanna talk much on it already..I will work very very hard when sem 2 arrives..a promise to myself.. =))
I am broke.I am looking for sales.hahas.i want movies.i want shopping.i want sports.i want more outings.I got a part time job.working for calvin klein.not going back past jobs. =)
have been very lazy.I didnt want prepare things for my upcoming taiwan trip.hahas.
I cant wait for XMAS! every xmas meant so much to me and my cliques. =) this year,xmas celebration shall be a little different.I wish to take out time for someone. =))
hmm.MORE MORE MORE outings! hee.tomorrow meeting abby! and will be able to see my cousin and her clique too! wheewhee! need to go down to paragon calvin klein for some things also. =))
*misses*
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Wednesday 12/11/08 gonna pass VERY SOON.
I am well prepared.hold on.I havent complete what I wanted to say.hahas.I know I have disappoint myself this Sem.I know I gotta get tons of SHIT tomorrow.ASSESSMENT DAY.I have prepared enough tissue paper.I have prepared an empty head to go there to store all kinds of insulting,sarcasm,screaming,shouting,lecturing and any words that they will say to bring me down down and DOWN.even my work is gonna to be thrown to the ground or out of the window,I am prepared.I am standing stronger.thanks alot daddy.without his encouragement and teachings,i will still be sitting down and not wanting to stand up.because I have lost my balance.
he have already seen life more than i do.to him,little things like what will be happening tomorrow is nothing.to me,it may be a time that will make me remember for life.I made the choice to step into art.so I faced what is coming.I have to be responsible for every decision I made.daddy know for this Sem,the stress I am going through but still not able to really excel and do it well..he knows everything.he supports me through and say its okay to waste abit more of time to retake this and that.he say important thing is i have to prove to myself I can do it if others can.and I gonna live up the promise i gave him.after my holidays,i will put in alot of hard work and work for my weaker modules.as well as those better ones.i MUST go beyond challenges.
Now I know nothing i can do to make tomorrow a better one.so go into the room with a positive attitude,face the consequences,control my tears inside and say thank you to everyone of them who will give me a hell time and leave the room telling ymself no more shit for the upcoming sem.NO MORE.I WILL NEVER allow that to happen anymore.This is still the first time I have little fears and worries.this is the first time i really let myself down.though not for all work.but for majority.never felt this way like now.feel so terrible.I know i have to learn to take it easy because this is part and parcel of life.no point crying over split milk.at most,after all shit,come out,have a little bit of tears and everythings over..I will use actions to prove to not others but myself that i can do a much much more better job when school starts again.let my nervousness last for 1 more day..I dread school.but for the sake of that piece of paper that will lead me to the key of success,I have to bear with it.Look ahead.tough days will be over.it will be over..
I have alot more to face when I am out to society..and by that time,i work for the sake of money..to survive..holidays jobs are just to gain experience..real working life.isnt as easy as it seems to be..
thanks to my besties who have been staying with me duing this period of hell,and to my daddy and uncle all,many thanks to you all.i dont know how to express through words..but i really appreciate all that you all have told me..I will go through these difficult times..i will.. =)
thanks carol for sharing with me so much too.. =)
All the best to everyone on their assessment day.. =)
Here I come to face the outcome! My shitty day..November 12..Sigh~what a horrible feeling..ahh! *bang wall* =X
AND..she knows he is going to be back very soon.. =))
I am well prepared.hold on.I havent complete what I wanted to say.hahas.I know I have disappoint myself this Sem.I know I gotta get tons of SHIT tomorrow.ASSESSMENT DAY.I have prepared enough tissue paper.I have prepared an empty head to go there to store all kinds of insulting,sarcasm,screaming,shouting,lecturing and any words that they will say to bring me down down and DOWN.even my work is gonna to be thrown to the ground or out of the window,I am prepared.I am standing stronger.thanks alot daddy.without his encouragement and teachings,i will still be sitting down and not wanting to stand up.because I have lost my balance.
he have already seen life more than i do.to him,little things like what will be happening tomorrow is nothing.to me,it may be a time that will make me remember for life.I made the choice to step into art.so I faced what is coming.I have to be responsible for every decision I made.daddy know for this Sem,the stress I am going through but still not able to really excel and do it well..he knows everything.he supports me through and say its okay to waste abit more of time to retake this and that.he say important thing is i have to prove to myself I can do it if others can.and I gonna live up the promise i gave him.after my holidays,i will put in alot of hard work and work for my weaker modules.as well as those better ones.i MUST go beyond challenges.
Now I know nothing i can do to make tomorrow a better one.so go into the room with a positive attitude,face the consequences,control my tears inside and say thank you to everyone of them who will give me a hell time and leave the room telling ymself no more shit for the upcoming sem.NO MORE.I WILL NEVER allow that to happen anymore.This is still the first time I have little fears and worries.this is the first time i really let myself down.though not for all work.but for majority.never felt this way like now.feel so terrible.I know i have to learn to take it easy because this is part and parcel of life.no point crying over split milk.at most,after all shit,come out,have a little bit of tears and everythings over..I will use actions to prove to not others but myself that i can do a much much more better job when school starts again.let my nervousness last for 1 more day..I dread school.but for the sake of that piece of paper that will lead me to the key of success,I have to bear with it.Look ahead.tough days will be over.it will be over..
I have alot more to face when I am out to society..and by that time,i work for the sake of money..to survive..holidays jobs are just to gain experience..real working life.isnt as easy as it seems to be..
thanks to my besties who have been staying with me duing this period of hell,and to my daddy and uncle all,many thanks to you all.i dont know how to express through words..but i really appreciate all that you all have told me..I will go through these difficult times..i will.. =)
thanks carol for sharing with me so much too.. =)
All the best to everyone on their assessment day.. =)
Here I come to face the outcome! My shitty day..November 12..Sigh~what a horrible feeling..ahh! *bang wall* =X
AND..she knows he is going to be back very soon.. =))
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Its very hurtful and painful to know every truth in every matter.well,no matter how far I run..can never reach the final destination because theres absolutely no way i can run away.
this is life.
If one place herself in a very pitiful state,ever thought of people whos suffering..troubling over three meals..worrying about utilities bills..and how their future will be like..so nowadays before I got too emotional..i will think twice..
when I feel I am the ONLY one facing stress..whos not facing it..appearances are deceiving..who knows whats hiding underneath those people who are living condos..driving bmw..working as a ceo in a big company..maybe they are facing worst kind of stress I can never imagine?maybe my stress is just a training so that i can cope better when I am out to society to work?perhaps I should really be more optimistic once again..and brace up..no matter how tough life is going to be..I already knew life is never easy and is full of sufferings..I shall save my everyday..and make it a better one..isnt it better?
or should i really cry my hearts out..once and for all..but I am sure I am going to tear as long as theres some happenings that will never stop me from holding my tears..
ironic thoughts.
I guessed everyone see 'stress' differently.my dad often told me..bear with it..control..and i will be able to see light ahead..
I think I have seen too much darkness..I feel negative at times..no matter how strong i am..i still have my weak side..
i know whatever happens..i will always have support from my close friends,my family and my uncle all.BUT.i cant rely on them forever..and for now,I pray to god..please bless my uncle with good health..during childhood times when my parents were busying working..my uncle family have been taking care of me..and i have a very very very close bonding with my uncle..all the memeories he had given me..I never forget and will never forget.all I know now is..I have to visit him very often and take care of him..
i told myself and my close ones..I will stay very strong and pull through tough times..but if one day,i really feel i need get out of all those terrible horrible shit and etc..when its beyond my control..i will make a choice..and i know i will have support from my family,close friends and my uncle all. =)
I am numb.because I dont feel anything..when I am having a high fever..when I am feeling so sick and seriously need to see doctor..
everyday different happenings.good or bad.life still have to move on..
seriously..sometimes i feel kinda tiring..live happily as a child..live with worries and anxiety during sec and tertiary times..fear results are bad..fear for these and that..create so much stress for oneself..come to society to work..hoping to earn lots of money..to satisfy own wants..people play politics..to achieve what they want..and again,stress..much more stress compared to schooling times..after that..people worry again..for what i dont know..all i can say is the stress is never ending..and when one can finally take a break..he or she realised..health is starting to give them problems..and worries is here again..plus sufferings..sometimes..dont understand life..
but since we humas are in this world..guess there is no turning back also..so shall make full use of everyday..by living it to fullest..i will try to cheer myself up..feeling too emotional these days..guess art industry is really lots and lots of hell..studying this line doesnt mean i will end up getting into this line..so i will carefully make a correct choice..
I used to have alot of dreams in the past..hoping to earn lots of money..eat well and live a good life..thinking that what will truly makes me happy all all these.I am wrong.totally wrong.
every little setbacks I faced..my thinking changes..
all I want now is true happiness..lots of money wont make me smile from my heart..and money is never enough and one can never stop earning it.but being contented with what i have and treasuring it is more important than anything else..only this way,i will feel happier..
简单就是幸福。
anyway,life is so busy as usual..i shant elaborate much on it..
I have yet to find any holiday job..boo.
I wish..to go Sydney with my loved one..I really loved the scenery there..and i really hope someday..i can travel around with my loved one..let go of all stress..and go overseas to enjoy.. =)
spore too small..hahas..
I want a camera..still saving $ to get one..my cameras are all lagging..need to retire already..ahahas..
hmm.thats all for now..take care everyone.. =))
this is life.
If one place herself in a very pitiful state,ever thought of people whos suffering..troubling over three meals..worrying about utilities bills..and how their future will be like..so nowadays before I got too emotional..i will think twice..
when I feel I am the ONLY one facing stress..whos not facing it..appearances are deceiving..who knows whats hiding underneath those people who are living condos..driving bmw..working as a ceo in a big company..maybe they are facing worst kind of stress I can never imagine?maybe my stress is just a training so that i can cope better when I am out to society to work?perhaps I should really be more optimistic once again..and brace up..no matter how tough life is going to be..I already knew life is never easy and is full of sufferings..I shall save my everyday..and make it a better one..isnt it better?
or should i really cry my hearts out..once and for all..but I am sure I am going to tear as long as theres some happenings that will never stop me from holding my tears..
ironic thoughts.
I guessed everyone see 'stress' differently.my dad often told me..bear with it..control..and i will be able to see light ahead..
I think I have seen too much darkness..I feel negative at times..no matter how strong i am..i still have my weak side..
i know whatever happens..i will always have support from my close friends,my family and my uncle all.BUT.i cant rely on them forever..and for now,I pray to god..please bless my uncle with good health..during childhood times when my parents were busying working..my uncle family have been taking care of me..and i have a very very very close bonding with my uncle..all the memeories he had given me..I never forget and will never forget.all I know now is..I have to visit him very often and take care of him..
i told myself and my close ones..I will stay very strong and pull through tough times..but if one day,i really feel i need get out of all those terrible horrible shit and etc..when its beyond my control..i will make a choice..and i know i will have support from my family,close friends and my uncle all. =)
I am numb.because I dont feel anything..when I am having a high fever..when I am feeling so sick and seriously need to see doctor..
everyday different happenings.good or bad.life still have to move on..
seriously..sometimes i feel kinda tiring..live happily as a child..live with worries and anxiety during sec and tertiary times..fear results are bad..fear for these and that..create so much stress for oneself..come to society to work..hoping to earn lots of money..to satisfy own wants..people play politics..to achieve what they want..and again,stress..much more stress compared to schooling times..after that..people worry again..for what i dont know..all i can say is the stress is never ending..and when one can finally take a break..he or she realised..health is starting to give them problems..and worries is here again..plus sufferings..sometimes..dont understand life..
but since we humas are in this world..guess there is no turning back also..so shall make full use of everyday..by living it to fullest..i will try to cheer myself up..feeling too emotional these days..guess art industry is really lots and lots of hell..studying this line doesnt mean i will end up getting into this line..so i will carefully make a correct choice..
I used to have alot of dreams in the past..hoping to earn lots of money..eat well and live a good life..thinking that what will truly makes me happy all all these.I am wrong.totally wrong.
every little setbacks I faced..my thinking changes..
all I want now is true happiness..lots of money wont make me smile from my heart..and money is never enough and one can never stop earning it.but being contented with what i have and treasuring it is more important than anything else..only this way,i will feel happier..
简单就是幸福。
anyway,life is so busy as usual..i shant elaborate much on it..
I have yet to find any holiday job..boo.
I wish..to go Sydney with my loved one..I really loved the scenery there..and i really hope someday..i can travel around with my loved one..let go of all stress..and go overseas to enjoy.. =)
spore too small..hahas..
I want a camera..still saving $ to get one..my cameras are all lagging..need to retire already..ahahas..
hmm.thats all for now..take care everyone.. =))
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Donna Lewis - I Love You Always Forever
Feels like, I'm standing in a timeless dream
Of light mists, of pale amber rose
Feels like, I'm lost in a deep cloud of heavenly scent
Touching, discovering you
Those days, of warm rains come rushing back to me
Miles of windless, summer night air
Secret moments, shared in the heat of the afternoon
Out of the stillness, soft spoken words
Chorus:
I love you, always forever
Near and far, closer together
Everywhere, I will be with you
Everyday, I will devour you
I love you, always forever
Near and far, closer together
Everywhere, I will be with you
Everyday, I will devour you
You've got, the most unbelievable
blue eyes I've ever seen
You've got, me almost melt away
As we lay there, under a blue sky
with pure white stars
Exotic sweetness, a magical time
(Chorus)
Say you'll love, love me forever
Never stop, not for whatever
Near and far and always and
everywhere and everything
Say you'll love, love me forever
Never stop, not for whatever
Near and far and always and
everywhere and everything
Say you'll love, love me forever
Never stop, not for whatever
Near and far and always and
everywhere and everything
(Chorus)
Feels like, I'm standing in a timeless dream
Of light mists, of pale amber rose
Feels like, I'm lost in a deep cloud of heavenly scent
Touching, discovering you
Those days, of warm rains come rushing back to me
Miles of windless, summer night air
Secret moments, shared in the heat of the afternoon
Out of the stillness, soft spoken words
Chorus:
I love you, always forever
Near and far, closer together
Everywhere, I will be with you
Everyday, I will devour you
I love you, always forever
Near and far, closer together
Everywhere, I will be with you
Everyday, I will devour you
You've got, the most unbelievable
blue eyes I've ever seen
You've got, me almost melt away
As we lay there, under a blue sky
with pure white stars
Exotic sweetness, a magical time
(Chorus)
Say you'll love, love me forever
Never stop, not for whatever
Near and far and always and
everywhere and everything
Say you'll love, love me forever
Never stop, not for whatever
Near and far and always and
everywhere and everything
Say you'll love, love me forever
Never stop, not for whatever
Near and far and always and
everywhere and everything
(Chorus)
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Have been some time since I last updated my blog.
I have been so so so so so x 10 busy with my projects.I am feeling so lethargic.moodless.and on the other hand,highly motivating myself to persevere till the end..when I am on the verge of giving up.seriously.this is not a joke.I am feeling so contradicting.I feel like a tree now.longing for the gardener..but hes vvv busy too..lets add oil togather yea! I am not going to say die no matter how tough life seems to be.. =))
every problem has a solution.
soon,my holidays are reaching.in about two weeks time?
I am going to do my vv best in everything now.I am going to put in my 101% after my holidays and when I am back to school again.
for now,all I can say is I am not left with much time.so I can only do my best to complete whatever I can.SIGH.I feel so horrible.driving me nuts. >.<>
I have been so so so so so x 10 busy with my projects.I am feeling so lethargic.moodless.and on the other hand,highly motivating myself to persevere till the end..when I am on the verge of giving up.seriously.this is not a joke.I am feeling so contradicting.I feel like a tree now.longing for the gardener..but hes vvv busy too..lets add oil togather yea! I am not going to say die no matter how tough life seems to be.. =))
every problem has a solution.
soon,my holidays are reaching.in about two weeks time?
I am going to do my vv best in everything now.I am going to put in my 101% after my holidays and when I am back to school again.
for now,all I can say is I am not left with much time.so I can only do my best to complete whatever I can.SIGH.I feel so horrible.driving me nuts. >.<>
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
I updated my post some days ago.but I deleted it.
too emo.
well,tutorial weeks over.time is on my side now.sadly,I am not making full use.
dont ask me why.motivation is lacking badly.I thought I am someone who will never say die even the world is going to collapse on me.where have I been.I am losing myself and the sense of direction.
I am unsure where I am standing at this point of time.all I can say I never once given up on anything.NEVER.guess all I have to do now is love what I am doing.and PUSH myself very hard.seriously,I meant it.
who is not feeling stress now.It is all about self-control.isnt it?
Its all about working togather as one.
I may seems like I dont care about a single thing.I have no sense of urgency.I am not doing anything.I am not showing concern or the least attention to things I should.
If anyone is feeling this way,then go ahead.
I no longer want feel bothered with any of these.Its getting way too tiring.come on,give me a break.
I am working on what everyone is working.and I am not fighting for any trophies or top rankings.I just want do my very best and yes.to excel, if I can.nothing else matters.
do pardon me for saying something harsh now.
for certain people:kindly shut up if you doesnt know anything about my life.
dont think you know alot when you know nuts.
dont go around giving unnecessary comments, words or whatever.you are making people's life more terrible and horrible.
you dont have the need to know these or that.get this clear.
someone told me..'live for yourself'.'not for others.'
these six words made me stronger.
maybe I shouldnt let people words caused such a huge impact on me.
had quite alot outings with clique and besties.and other friends.thanks for making each and every outing a wonderful one.looking forward for more. =))
well,photos to be uploaded asap,I hope.hahas.
I missed.. .. .. .. ..
too emo.
well,tutorial weeks over.time is on my side now.sadly,I am not making full use.
dont ask me why.motivation is lacking badly.I thought I am someone who will never say die even the world is going to collapse on me.where have I been.I am losing myself and the sense of direction.
I am unsure where I am standing at this point of time.all I can say I never once given up on anything.NEVER.guess all I have to do now is love what I am doing.and PUSH myself very hard.seriously,I meant it.
who is not feeling stress now.It is all about self-control.isnt it?
Its all about working togather as one.
I may seems like I dont care about a single thing.I have no sense of urgency.I am not doing anything.I am not showing concern or the least attention to things I should.
If anyone is feeling this way,then go ahead.
I no longer want feel bothered with any of these.Its getting way too tiring.come on,give me a break.
I am working on what everyone is working.and I am not fighting for any trophies or top rankings.I just want do my very best and yes.to excel, if I can.nothing else matters.
do pardon me for saying something harsh now.
for certain people:kindly shut up if you doesnt know anything about my life.
dont think you know alot when you know nuts.
dont go around giving unnecessary comments, words or whatever.you are making people's life more terrible and horrible.
you dont have the need to know these or that.get this clear.
someone told me..'live for yourself'.'not for others.'
these six words made me stronger.
maybe I shouldnt let people words caused such a huge impact on me.
had quite alot outings with clique and besties.and other friends.thanks for making each and every outing a wonderful one.looking forward for more. =))
well,photos to be uploaded asap,I hope.hahas.
I missed.. .. .. .. ..
Sunday, September 7, 2008
I can see dust all over. =p
I am here for spring cleaning.
but no salary.awwwwwwwww.sad. =p
life has been the same.revolving around projects and more inspirations to come along. =))
went flea market with cousin yesterday evening.omg.found 'treasure'! hahas.so excited.and we spent the same amount.oh.wait.theres one dollar difference.hahas.i spent lesser.die.my kbox outing like gone.I am declaring bankrupt.someone save meeeeeeee.boo.
and for the first time we went to celebrate advance mid-autumn festival! hahahas.cool huh.
but I am rushing off around 7 plus for my religon class.
was late for ten minutes.okay ba.hee.shihui got a seat for me.but I couldnt find her.so I sat at the back.hahas.the class was the longest class i ever went.hahas.I lose concentration but still managed to absorb some la.hahas.
after everything ended,friends who lived the same block as me went home togather.one of them drive so yarhs.hahas.they were pretty crappy I would say.I just sat inside relaxing and keeping quiet.all I do is laughed and LAUGHED.hahas.retarded huh.lol.
weather is so unpredictable nwadays.I have become a good girl too. =X I bring umbrella out everyday.with no complaints.hahas.
tutorial break is here.got to make full use of it.and abby birthday is reaching in like one week time?god.hahas.thats really fast.
i want go sentosa! i want! shall find one day and go during this break time?? hehe.abby! =p
hmm.gonna meet diana to do and discuss work too. =))
got endless people to meet.hahas.
my handphone gone bonkers lately.yea.Its time for a new one.
what a blue sunday.hahas.staying home.facing four walls.and time for bedtime stories! hahas.i want to sleep.I am down with cold.terrible.horrible.ahh.
I dont like cca anymore.i dont know why.Its getting more depressing.okay.the more I hate it,the more I shall love it.*process of psychoing* =p
I have tons of books to return to tp lib.meilin!!!!! =(
I need more enrgy to do more work.can i go to sleep now? =p
YES.permission granted by 'qi'. =p lalalalala.
please.go away cold.go away cold. =(
I am here for spring cleaning.
but no salary.awwwwwwwww.sad. =p
life has been the same.revolving around projects and more inspirations to come along. =))
went flea market with cousin yesterday evening.omg.found 'treasure'! hahas.so excited.and we spent the same amount.oh.wait.theres one dollar difference.hahas.i spent lesser.die.my kbox outing like gone.I am declaring bankrupt.someone save meeeeeeee.boo.
and for the first time we went to celebrate advance mid-autumn festival! hahahas.cool huh.
but I am rushing off around 7 plus for my religon class.
was late for ten minutes.okay ba.hee.shihui got a seat for me.but I couldnt find her.so I sat at the back.hahas.the class was the longest class i ever went.hahas.I lose concentration but still managed to absorb some la.hahas.
after everything ended,friends who lived the same block as me went home togather.one of them drive so yarhs.hahas.they were pretty crappy I would say.I just sat inside relaxing and keeping quiet.all I do is laughed and LAUGHED.hahas.retarded huh.lol.
weather is so unpredictable nwadays.I have become a good girl too. =X I bring umbrella out everyday.with no complaints.hahas.
tutorial break is here.got to make full use of it.and abby birthday is reaching in like one week time?god.hahas.thats really fast.
i want go sentosa! i want! shall find one day and go during this break time?? hehe.abby! =p
hmm.gonna meet diana to do and discuss work too. =))
got endless people to meet.hahas.
my handphone gone bonkers lately.yea.Its time for a new one.
what a blue sunday.hahas.staying home.facing four walls.and time for bedtime stories! hahas.i want to sleep.I am down with cold.terrible.horrible.ahh.
I dont like cca anymore.i dont know why.Its getting more depressing.okay.the more I hate it,the more I shall love it.*process of psychoing* =p
I have tons of books to return to tp lib.meilin!!!!! =(
I need more enrgy to do more work.can i go to sleep now? =p
YES.permission granted by 'qi'. =p lalalalala.
please.go away cold.go away cold. =(
Saturday, August 23, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JADON,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JADON KWOK! =))))))))))
boy boy is finally 2 years old.
anyway,would like to say sorry to my uncle family..for not being able to attend Jadon party these 2 years..but I will go see jadon next week and celebrate belated with him. =))
I will go and pass the birthday prezie to boy boy first anyway. =))
his smile and laughter often melts my heart.take away all my stress and unhappiness.and fiilled the little happiness to FULL.see.'THE POWER OF LOVE'. =XXXXXXXXXX hahahas.
JADON RAWKS! hehe.
I am sure he will have a very enjoyable day! and his birthday party this year will be on the focus of 'NONG NONG TOO TOO TRAIN'.muahahas.
I dont know where to get baby bob for him. =( and he got too many Elmo stuffs.hahas.
hope the prezie I have gotten for him will make him smile! =))
hmm.many many work.this is NOT depressing.I am moving forward and reach out high! =))
Goals in life.Success is never an easy path.but is definitely achieveable.hehe.
anyway,just do my very best.and always remind myself..dont lose direction and nono ambitious.
知足常乐! and I will be a happy person! wheee.
humans all have 烦恼.stand a different viewpoint from others,look at things in a optimistic way and things will get better. =))
I may have times that I am down.meet all sorts of obstacles.having a tough time.feeling very emo.but well,bad times will go away and better times will be coming. =))
whatever it is,forgive and forget.put on a happy smile and every tomorrow will be a better one! =))
Thanks to my uncle family,my 3 besties and a few very good friends of mine who have been with me through my tough times and happy times. =))
I missed JADON.again.hahas.
before I end this post,
ONCE AGAIN,
JADON boy, 生日快乐! =))
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JADON,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JADON KWOK! =))))))))))
boy boy is finally 2 years old.
anyway,would like to say sorry to my uncle family..for not being able to attend Jadon party these 2 years..but I will go see jadon next week and celebrate belated with him. =))
I will go and pass the birthday prezie to boy boy first anyway. =))
his smile and laughter often melts my heart.take away all my stress and unhappiness.and fiilled the little happiness to FULL.see.'THE POWER OF LOVE'. =XXXXXXXXXX hahahas.
JADON RAWKS! hehe.
I am sure he will have a very enjoyable day! and his birthday party this year will be on the focus of 'NONG NONG TOO TOO TRAIN'.muahahas.
I dont know where to get baby bob for him. =( and he got too many Elmo stuffs.hahas.
hope the prezie I have gotten for him will make him smile! =))
hmm.many many work.this is NOT depressing.I am moving forward and reach out high! =))
Goals in life.Success is never an easy path.but is definitely achieveable.hehe.
anyway,just do my very best.and always remind myself..dont lose direction and nono ambitious.
知足常乐! and I will be a happy person! wheee.
humans all have 烦恼.stand a different viewpoint from others,look at things in a optimistic way and things will get better. =))
I may have times that I am down.meet all sorts of obstacles.having a tough time.feeling very emo.but well,bad times will go away and better times will be coming. =))
whatever it is,forgive and forget.put on a happy smile and every tomorrow will be a better one! =))
Thanks to my uncle family,my 3 besties and a few very good friends of mine who have been with me through my tough times and happy times. =))
I missed JADON.again.hahas.
before I end this post,
ONCE AGAIN,
JADON boy, 生日快乐! =))
Friday, August 22, 2008
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Thanks abby darling for the wonderful chat yesterday. =)))))
we shall meet next week for our outing.and also one more outing with our 'clique'.hahas.for desserts.
abby and dearie girl,i have so many things to share.lets find a free time and have endless chat! hahas.
I dont know why am I having this kind of feeling now.
I know i shouldnt have felt this way.but.well.never mind.
I can self control very well.
that shouldnt have cause any impact on me in the first place.
I have no rights to interfere anyway. =)
dont brood about it too much..
hmm.qi got too many work on hand now.
be strong! nothing can bring me down! =))
yesterday took some photos with lux and abby.will upload it.
and today was a great day.went to do some work.and afternoon went meet shihui to go see jadon.had an enjoyable day. =))
took alot of photos.will upload it too.
thats all.
we shall meet next week for our outing.and also one more outing with our 'clique'.hahas.for desserts.
abby and dearie girl,i have so many things to share.lets find a free time and have endless chat! hahas.
I dont know why am I having this kind of feeling now.
I know i shouldnt have felt this way.but.well.never mind.
I can self control very well.
that shouldnt have cause any impact on me in the first place.
I have no rights to interfere anyway. =)
dont brood about it too much..
hmm.qi got too many work on hand now.
be strong! nothing can bring me down! =))
yesterday took some photos with lux and abby.will upload it.
and today was a great day.went to do some work.and afternoon went meet shihui to go see jadon.had an enjoyable day. =))
took alot of photos.will upload it too.
thats all.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Thanks sinweng for the Tioman pictures.really beautiful.and I am not going to pay for the copyright money.you this cheaterbug! hahas. =p anyhow link one.
and thanks for the chat. =))
and you and your girlfriend will be okay soon.so dont worry,be happy! you taught me one.hahas.
was happy because finally got to chat with abby.and hopefully we are going to watch that movie soon! I know you will always know what i meant.hahas.sigh.and humans changed anytime,anywhere.
There will be something like accounting and maths test this coming Monday.I have yet to prepare actually.I am worried I will do very badly.theres too many work on hand.
and I dont deny I slacked quite alot these days.but I do my work too.somehow,I dont feel I am capable enough to handle too many things.too confident may leads to failure.but without confidence,I am not getting anywhere.feel that I will have the ability to work towards my goals but on the other hand,I am feeling quite useless.
I seriously want to take a break this weekend.but forget it.sigh.
shall see.
very long.I never mentioned 'cry' or 'tears' in my blog.guessed I am controlling it very well.
I try very hard to not whine to friends about any of the problems I faced.and how helpless I feel at times.everybody is so busy.so what makes my busy schedule so unique and so different from others.
especially my three besties.they are stressed enough.I just want to be a good listener and lighten their burdens and worries.
I have been showing my strong side to many people.and smile do hide everything well.I am not someone who will weaken easily but I do have my weak side.I will be able to pull through the tough times.I need to tell myself that for umpteen times.
even theres no one to support me through this tough times,I must overcome all obstacles and endure through.
to people I am closer with..I tend to hide my emotions even more..especially now..
I dont know why.
I dont want to see them worry.they must be happier than me.that will tells me they are leading on well. =)
every little thing can cheer me up.so I will go all out to cheer myself up like getting myself more chocolates and biscuits.
I am so in love with this song lately..'Fall for you' by Second Serenade. =)
and thanks for the chat. =))
and you and your girlfriend will be okay soon.so dont worry,be happy! you taught me one.hahas.
was happy because finally got to chat with abby.and hopefully we are going to watch that movie soon! I know you will always know what i meant.hahas.sigh.and humans changed anytime,anywhere.
There will be something like accounting and maths test this coming Monday.I have yet to prepare actually.I am worried I will do very badly.theres too many work on hand.
and I dont deny I slacked quite alot these days.but I do my work too.somehow,I dont feel I am capable enough to handle too many things.too confident may leads to failure.but without confidence,I am not getting anywhere.feel that I will have the ability to work towards my goals but on the other hand,I am feeling quite useless.
I seriously want to take a break this weekend.but forget it.sigh.
shall see.
very long.I never mentioned 'cry' or 'tears' in my blog.guessed I am controlling it very well.
I try very hard to not whine to friends about any of the problems I faced.and how helpless I feel at times.everybody is so busy.so what makes my busy schedule so unique and so different from others.
especially my three besties.they are stressed enough.I just want to be a good listener and lighten their burdens and worries.
I have been showing my strong side to many people.and smile do hide everything well.I am not someone who will weaken easily but I do have my weak side.I will be able to pull through the tough times.I need to tell myself that for umpteen times.
even theres no one to support me through this tough times,I must overcome all obstacles and endure through.
to people I am closer with..I tend to hide my emotions even more..especially now..
I dont know why.
I dont want to see them worry.they must be happier than me.that will tells me they are leading on well. =)
every little thing can cheer me up.so I will go all out to cheer myself up like getting myself more chocolates and biscuits.
I am so in love with this song lately..'Fall for you' by Second Serenade. =)
Monday, August 11, 2008
hello people.I am back to blogging again.hahas.
hmm.check out below! photos again.hehe.
taken with dearie girl on Sunday.and we went to watch money not enough 2! super nice.funny and touching! MUST watch everyone! =))
and took photos today too! with pretty Debra! nice clarisse! and beloved diana! hahas.
and see the little orange tinky?? small version of basic blocks! cool huh! hahas.so cute! diana loved it lots.hahas.
and i missed abby abby! =(
lets meet up for ice cream and little outings soon okay. =)
woo.today was so crappy in school la.
clarisse found out mini basic blocks not straight and not right.hahs.i told her you go tell her.our lecturer.she was like.noo! hahas.
i am like i go say ah.hahas.wanting to tease our lecturer.hahas.shes like hey! are you serious?hahas.
clarisse is so cute and nice la! hahas.should have video her reaction down. =p
and what is with the 'OMG' tinky today.hahas.
olsen and debra is so funny la.especially in the class.the OH MY GOD.we actually say it togather and tease our lecturer may.hahas.and she was like.hahas.laughing with us too.hahas.
then started OMG ing with alot of differnt tones and expressions.super funny.cannot take it.hahas.
and what is with the 'mab' and 'mape' tinky too.hahas.tt olsen is so funny la.hahas.just because my name is maybelyn.zz.tease and tease me! =( hahas.not only olsen loh.arr.hahas.and debra also! hahas.
and may was so cute today.hahas.she was telling us her young times.and didnt know shes so passionate to sports.hahas.and she hates squash.because she hates to be confined in that small area and started chasing after a stupid ball.haahhas.but I find that squash quite interesting. =p
and woah.a sense of achievement today.doing maths and accounting.hahas.esp when the ans is right!hahas.
hmm.more updates.have ALOT of things to do.
I seems to be under too much stress.no la.i must try to relax. =))
will update again. =)
Everyone do rest early yea? =)
hmm.check out below! photos again.hehe.
taken with dearie girl on Sunday.and we went to watch money not enough 2! super nice.funny and touching! MUST watch everyone! =))
and took photos today too! with pretty Debra! nice clarisse! and beloved diana! hahas.
and see the little orange tinky?? small version of basic blocks! cool huh! hahas.so cute! diana loved it lots.hahas.
and i missed abby abby! =(
lets meet up for ice cream and little outings soon okay. =)
woo.today was so crappy in school la.
clarisse found out mini basic blocks not straight and not right.hahs.i told her you go tell her.our lecturer.she was like.noo! hahas.
i am like i go say ah.hahas.wanting to tease our lecturer.hahas.shes like hey! are you serious?hahas.
clarisse is so cute and nice la! hahas.should have video her reaction down. =p
and what is with the 'OMG' tinky today.hahas.
olsen and debra is so funny la.especially in the class.the OH MY GOD.we actually say it togather and tease our lecturer may.hahas.and she was like.hahas.laughing with us too.hahas.
then started OMG ing with alot of differnt tones and expressions.super funny.cannot take it.hahas.
and what is with the 'mab' and 'mape' tinky too.hahas.tt olsen is so funny la.hahas.just because my name is maybelyn.zz.tease and tease me! =( hahas.not only olsen loh.arr.hahas.and debra also! hahas.
and may was so cute today.hahas.she was telling us her young times.and didnt know shes so passionate to sports.hahas.and she hates squash.because she hates to be confined in that small area and started chasing after a stupid ball.haahhas.but I find that squash quite interesting. =p
and woah.a sense of achievement today.doing maths and accounting.hahas.esp when the ans is right!hahas.
hmm.more updates.have ALOT of things to do.
I seems to be under too much stress.no la.i must try to relax. =))
will update again. =)
Everyone do rest early yea? =)
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