Tell Me

I dont know if he reads my blog.
I dont know how to express my feelings to him through sms.
I have the urge all the time to message over.but I fear he will give me cold shoulder..
I fear my words will make him feel uncomfortable.uneasy.sad.or mixed.
I wish he can tell me.
tell me,have you let go of me.
tell me,have you cast me to one corner and no longer want bother about me.
tell me,have you forbid me to care for you.
tell me,have you push me away and not allowing me to enter your world.
tell me,you dont want me anymore.
tell me,am I not worthy of you.
tell me,you wont want to see me..

WHY.
Why am I having so many thoughts inside my mind.
Why am I feeling so so sad.
Why do I love you so much.
Why do I feel so pain in my heart.
Why cant I control my tears now.
Why are you in my thoughts all the time.
Why am I longing for you.

If I am given a chance..I wont want to let go of you..but will you.. .. ..