3am flight on friday.
all of sudden..brings me back to some time ago..when someone was away for three weeks..at that time..I wish so much I can go train with him..but thats not possible..still remember on that day..the last day I will get to see him before he fly..I left him with a smile..and teared when I am on my way to take bus..I dont know how to express out my love for him that time..really..I dont know why I can be so useless at times..why cant I just show my feelings bravely..instead of keeping a little inside my heart..I didnt know I am that dumb..
my heart long to be with him..every moment before hes going overseas..when hes over there..I am facing the toughest period.too many tasks on hand.I feel like a failure.but still,I managed to pull through with the support of my besties..and with the determination in me..I never want say die..because I believed 'attitude plays a very big part in my life..right attitude is the key to success..I have come to realised that..and thats not too late..
and during that time..some incidents happened too..though hes not by my side..I have always placed him tight in my mind and heart..I know hes supporting me even though he seem to be very far way from me..toughest period will still passed..and I made it through..really glad..and I know in future..I will be facing more things..so i cant afford to fall..
still remember every day that time..though cant contact much..I pray for him every night before I sleep..hope hes safe over there..now come to think of it..my face wears a smile..
3weeks are not short..but not long too..soon..the awaiting day came..feeling very happy..but the happiness stopped..very soon..I dont know..I really dont know..should everything end this way..why is it ending this way..I have got no answers to these questions..my weak side revealed again now..
at this point of time..my tears went out of control again..
I am sorry.I am weak..
I know at airport tomorrow night..I will cry..dont laugh at me alright..I know..in life,one day can have alot of happenings..so I am really leaving singapore with worries..seems like I am going to cry everytime my friends fly..or my turn to fly..sigh..I feel like a crybaby..hahas..









maybe.




she is not worthy of his love.




she hate herself.




for not being able to give him happiness.




If.




she had a chance.




she wont allow herself to ruin everything.




crying doesnt seems to help.
but she treasure everything too much..
she never knew everything matters so much so much.. ..





she hopes to see him..




her wish cant seem to fufil..




she is going to leave with tears..




and back with tears..









his three weeks.she cant bear to see him go.and she looked forward for him to be back..
her eight days.shes reluctant to leave..and shes going to be back with tears..the longing feeling..the empty feeling..