I seriously want to start updating my post as often as I can.
I need to vent out whatever.I need to relieve stress.I need a break.I need motivation.I feel so uninspired.I need a good sleep for at least 24 hours for now.I dont want doctors and nurses to start smiling at me.thats a bad omen.and you see.I fell sick now.argh.
I always thought minor flu,cough and sore thoat or headache will just come and go.and recover by its own in few days time.well,I am so wrong.this time round,no escape.I am really sick.guessed it will take more than 3 days to recover.I hate this feeling.especially when that pile of madness is still clinging to me like what.duh.I am learning to love my pile of madness.what a way to decieve myself.how can I possibly love them! =(
maybe when inspiration start coming..yea.I will love them.shall see by then.arr.
tons of books containing chup pa lang of blah blah blah.travelling with me in my mind everyday.all the information and pictures refuses to let me off.WHY! AHH! HELP!
I am coughing like mad.throat feels painful but I still can sing. =x flu is still very good to me.
but work is NEVER ending.I dont care.I will slack and stop torturing myself. =xxxxx
STRESS is never a good thing.I finally lose control.because of STRESS.I sort of flare up to someone.feels very bad.this shall never happen again.
I have got few outings with besties and friends.but I am sorry.I really cant make it for the days that you people are free.let me try to re schedule my things ok.I promise I will try to meet up with you all.
anyway,was touched that abby mentioned to me before she loves me! =xx sound les huh.=xxx
and she came to chat with me yesterday! yay.BFF! =))
and thanks lots to diana.knowing I wasnt feeling too good on friday.and didnt really talk much,she never further ask anymore when I never continue to say.thanks for your understanding! =))
I am just vexed over own wk things and etc things.and religion things got to always come in at the wrong time.but I am fine already. =)
and sorry to dearie girl.I always feel very bad.for bringing your disappointment in.try to bear with it okay.if your are free coming thursday,let me know yea. ;)
anyway,mer has been feeling highly stressed.dont be alright.you will be having your holidays in about 1 month time?hang in there! you will be fine! Np de.hehe.
kinda miss zhouling.hahas.
went to suntec that day on thur.it was sanuk pushcart last day.saw my little boss and my manager! hahas.so happy.and got to see margaret auntie and mingchun! too bad qi si left! somemore dao my msg and call! arr.hahas.oya,i saw nazar too! =))
primavision is so fun!I think I am beginning to like it.hahas.
F1 is coming up! woo!
I am slowly seeing my own style nowdays.wheee.
but still in a mess.hahas.Beautiful mess I call it.lala.
sometimes stress leads to boredom.
when boredom starts,mind is not stabilise.the feeling of aimless is back.the direction seems too unclear.only solution is to bang against the wall and WAKE UP! hahas.
HOW should I keep my motivation going.without stopping.
I am feeling so terribly lost now. =((((((((((
all i can say is STAY STRONG.JIAYOU! hopefully it helps.
but it never helps! I am still down.now.I am not feeling happy now.I want chocolates.and then welcome sexy voice. =(
I want to excel.its a reverie.its hard.pushing myself too hard will make me fell very badly.but i still want to try.should i. =(
OKAY.TIME to sleep.I want to REST.I am thinking too much.
and shihui,got good news. come online quick. ;)
WHERE is my LAVENDER ICE CREAM.boo.

feeling down down down.. .. ..